dreams and reality

i see not what you see, seriously.

2009-06-17T23:53:00.002+08:00

2 ways to look at this.

either, i have changed and for now feel good in the state i'm in. so i do not see the point in trying to change 'back' to fit any of your impression of me. i'm talking in general crowd so no worries, i'm not targetting you.

or, nothing happened so far. just that i've seen many more things for now and still experiencing it. no harm, i feel. why restrict yourself when you have the right to flow and go with life?

change? i dun understand how i've 'changed'.
tried lookin at it from your point of view but i feel it doesnt make sense. everything is still the same. school, work and a temporal addition.
you are probably talking in terms of environment and perspective?
i always had such thoughts, all along.
and everyone knows this. i dunno how come it doesnt ''work'' here.

i going to say this.
i have not changed.
i have failed to see your perspective, perhaps enlightening me might help.
i don't want people to think this way
i just want to share what i've seen with you guys but unfortunately it's not working well.

i actually find difficulty in communicating with you all these days. honestly.why? i don't know. everytime i try to speak, i have to hesitate.

2009-05-03T18:24:00.000+08:00

My friends from high school
Married their high school boyfriends
Moved into houses in the same ZIP codes
Where their parents live

But I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow

I hit the highway in a pink RV with stars on the ceiling
Lived like a gypsy
Six strong hands on the steering wheel

I've been a long time gone now
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
But I've always found my way somehow

By taking the long way
Taking the long way around
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around

I met the queen of whatever
Drank with the Irish and smoked with the hippies
Moved with the shakers
Wouldn't kiss all the asses that they told me to

No I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow

It's been two long years now
Since the top of the world came crashing down
And I'm getting' it back on the road now

But I'm taking the long way
Taking the long way around
I'm taking the long way
Taking the long way around
The long
The long way around

Well, I fought with a stranger and I met myself
I opened my mouth and I heard myself
It can get pretty lonely when you show yourself
Guess I could have made it easier on myself

But I, I could never follow
No I, I could never follow

Well, I never seem to do it like anybody else
Maybe someday, someday I'm gonna settle down
If you ever want to find me I can still be found

Taking the long way
Taking the long way around
Taking the long way
Taking the long way around

this is why he's hot

2009-05-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

If you are Wolverine, what would you do with his claws?
I'd learn how to be a sushi chef. It's got to be handy 'cause I love sashimi. It must be very convenient you know... six blades, cut all at one once.

omg, Hugh Jackman. i love you.

the highway is filled with fog.

2009-04-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

HAHA.
people change, don't they.

at first the things we do somewhat drifts everything apart.
it is only after the thoughts and it seems and feels like,
people start geting back to you, as though nothing happened.

also,
the opinions of others seem to change the moment life's unexpected turns twists you around. 2 words, what the. ? i'm not suprised. i watched this movie once and i really agree with that very line coming from the thoughts of the lead actress. all in all, i can only say conservative. i said this many times before, i'm not good at convincing. but what the fuck, you just dont get it.it's not like i cannot see from your point of view.

i'm close. but not close enough, to feel the thrill, to feel the edge.
hmm, i'm feeling both pissed and bored.OH, HELL'S KITCHEN LAST EPISODE NOW.

the little game

2009-04-05T21:06:00.003+08:00

the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me

a little bit of this
and a little bit of that
who knew fun came in mini size

yesterday was cool. Kaz asked me to get him a suprise dinner and i got scared. cos i din know what he like. got him nasi lemak, niz's advice. i hope he was genuinely happy wih the dinner..hmm
anyway, i learnt that chef simon's got a bike! and i love bikes! and he says i can get on his bike! .... i think when i tell people, they have a small impression that it's like wat, a date? no please. its not. i'm making it clear and i wont repeat that.

omg, Alonso!!!! i saw your car spinning out and you got back on track! this race in Sepang sucks. but its so cool seeing what happens when a monsoon comes and suspends the race. J Button won, i think he did a fine job. i look forward to Shanghai's race.

ughhhh. nothing to blog alr.

battling thoughts

2009-03-30T14:38:00.003+08:00

It's like a circle that don't ever end

HEADLINES: FERNANDO ALONSO IS 6TH. KIMI WAS INDEED A DISAPPOINTMENT. SORRY DENISE, BETTER LUCK IN MALAYSIA EH? THE NICEST PART OF THE RACE WAS THE ''FIGHT'' BETWEEN VETELL AND WHO WAS THAT, KUBICA? YEAH. FINISHING IN WITH 3 TIRES WAS NOT BAD. HAHA
sunday's a slack day to work. but yesterday was alright. more people came in due to the Ethan Hawke play by Sam Mendes. gosh, if Kate Winslet came along, i'll definitely call in sick and look for her in the esplanade!! haha.

there's nothing much to blog lately. i just look forward to the F1. i need to save money..i need to get inside the pitlane...ughh!!! anyone? please get me into the pitlane tour thing!!! i'll really love you man.

No more trouble in my soul
No more time to make me whole
So today I try to tell you
I'll be on my way
Show me where the answers are
Show me where the truth forgives

In my head I've tried to reason
I'll be on my way
Some say, the road is clear
Some say confront your fear
Why do people always change
When memories always stay the same

aww it's nothing.

2009-03-28T00:41:00.003+08:00

reality is nice enough to let me know
history is not repeating itself.
now i wait to see what happens.
and i look forward to it

HAHA. SET OUT TO MEET AMANDA IN THE EVENING AND CHILLED AT STARBUCKS WITH VENTI CARAMEL FRAPS! this happened because we were going to gobi's house. since he's been bragging so muuch about his fishys in his house, i wanted to see his fishys. and of course, company was included.

one thing, gobi doesnt shut the door when he leaves. i was..amused by that. haha. there's only the gate and u see mini candles around the house. about 10 of us entered his house and settled down pretty quickly. i was still looking forward to seeing fishys and I SAW AND MY GOSH. HAHA, YOU HAVE TO BE THERE TO LIKE THE WHOLE FASCINATION HE'S GOT. fishys were pretty big. aerowanas. whatever the spelling. crickets. worms. and FROGS. ugh.
pretty cool stuff we were doin there: taboo with almost everyone, jenga with amanda, sufien and alfean. everyone ate the gobi's mussels; joel says its a must try. i dun really like mussels but i like the marinate:D watching fishys was the nicest things to do. just sit there and stare..
hours in the morning were rather nice. sleep clock flipped 180 and it feels different.

anyway. did i mention that was friday??the first few hours of the day.
gobi's got a nice house, too bad its too small. but wtf, so fucking inconvenient. walked fucking far...

work work work is all that's occupying the month. yesterday we've got the Earth Hour thing and bartenders played with fire, it was so cool and the public watched from the outside and never came in. damned... as 7 april draws nearer, i'm terrified. today i hear its about 700 guests in a night. ohjoy, how to survive you tell me. and there's a competition for the part timers.7 april could just be my last day. i learnt 1 thing this week..randomly: God answers prayers. HAHA.

please tell me what is taking place
cos i cant seem to find a trace
guess it must have got erased somehow

for now it's just the end of the road

2009-03-21T12:53:00.002+08:00

cranky. madness. chaos. noise.
smoke.crazy.loud.fatigue. jammed.
booze. hardcore. guys.

all in a ~~day's~~ night's work

i was tired, so was everyone. fuck was such an favourite word, considering the fact that it was used 5 times per 30sec, at least. crowd chaos was insane, mind goes blank, wishing everything would come to an end in seconds. pressure is like God moving the Earth.

i made an irreversible mistake previously in the evening. customers ordered 4 stellas half pint and they left, so i cleared their table. they left and i forgot to get them the bill. the bloody bill. how much it cost, i have no idea. but it's no suprise my pay is gonna go down.. was so fucking pissed with myself. i wondered why i let such shit happened? in work, any mistakes, bystanders will calm you down with 2 words ''SHIT HAPPENS''. how consoling. no offense though.

many things happened yesterday which i dun feel like saying. it's like when a mistake is made, i always ask myself, why did i let that happened? over and over again. gobi was pissed yesterday, like super. i guess crowd control is not easy. anyway, i was to inform section head that i left for supper but i missed that out, again. which isnt very nice. he told amanda and i about being responsible and doesnt want to see that happening again. sometimes, i feel like there's a different level of expectation. back in school days, it happened the same. you try not to disappoint your teacher because you want to show how good you are. evidently, i failed to do so and likewise at work, i failed again. hmmm, born failure eh. correct, people do make mistakes sometimes. but it's sometimes not everytime.

just to be a bit random because i need to go to work now, i learnt something last night:
gin and tonic sucks. i dun understand why Hugh Jackman likes that. ugh. i can barely finish 3 sips!

at the end of the day
i only have myself to blame

here, there, everywhere

2009-03-19T01:49:00.002+08:00

fading. at last.
the start of recurring euphoria,
perhaps.

MOVIE MARATHON!!! love it to bits.
1st stop: Marley & Me
shuddup. i know i'm fucking slow on this one. WHAT TO DO. GOT WORK WAT. nice movie, labradoddle shows are always touching. lol. i hope Jennifer and Owen really gets together(: they look competible!

2nd stop: Push
hmm. teaser is better den the movie itself, i would say. ending was abrupt. CHRIS EVANS IS STILL VERY HOTILICIOUS. CAMELLIE BELLE IS SUPER HOT.( i cant spell her name again) haha. this one's slightly over-anticipated. entertaining though.

3rd stop: Last Chance Harvey
zommg. i like this show. it's so nice and so sweet! think bottom line is saying the whole ''one last shot, make it count'' kinda thing. its sad and sweet. haha. jasmine wouldnt stop thinking about work (SEE, WE'RE ALL STRESSED) because the characters kept asking each other ''are you ok?'', which is a very common thing back at work. lol. inside joke.

friday's coming. part of me awaits the excitement of anticipating work, the other half isnt too keen. my mind's split into 2 sometimes. i wonder why and den rationalise a bit. but there's always something that keeps me questioning. on friday, i will miss House: Season 2 for the third time in a row. Chances of gobi buying the dvd is cutting by half everytime i think about it. ohwell. sacrifice.
work's coming..and me not really likey.

fading. at last.
caught in the moment was none but folly.
foolish thoughts dreamer, foolish thoughts

pray hard it's all part of wishful thinking

2009-03-16T20:14:00.002+08:00

it's either a yes or a no
you can never be sitting on the fence
when it comes to these..can you.

zomg. i saw 2 FERNANDO ALONSO LOOKALIKES FOR THE PAST 2 DAYS. one was katharina's friend): he's got thick eyebrows like Alonso's but he looks the university style. THE FIRST ONE WAS DAMN SIMILIAR, I DUNNO HOW TO DESCRIBE MAN. but both look alike!! hopefully Fernando will really come during F1, he needs to eat wat, right?

sigh, as much as i enjoy working in the restautrant, there's always the ugly side..
i made 2 mistakes in front of Kaz, and 3..2 and a half in front of Gobi. gawd, and i thought i was going to get fired. it is scary when it happened, because you dunno how to react and you want to quickly walk away from it as soon and clean as possible. I told amanda about the spill last night, looking back now, i feel like laughing lout loud.

YOU SEE: chilli con carne( pronounced '' car neh'') has got a sauce in a jar. and the jar is placed on some long skinny tray. i took the food from my friend Jessica (oh, it takes 2 hands to hold) and Gobi came over and asked silently ''are you ok?'' ..something like that. i said ''yah'' and poof! the sauce slipped and fell on my shoe and the floor. LOL...THE SCENE WAS SUPER FUNNY COS 2 WAITRESSES AND 1 MANAGER took turns to say ''Shit''. i should act it out for you. its super lame..the customers were..''omg omg'' like what the HELL. never see spill before eh.

THEN: jessica had a tray with utensils and the drinks menu on it. i wanted to take the menu off so there's more space for the other utensils. when i took the menu, a CRACK! followed immediately. shit. Gobi came again. i was like...sure fired alr. then, we all took turns to say Shit again. lol. its damn stressful. like jessica said '' if you made a mistake once, you sure will somehow make another one cos you're pressured and you become stressed'' . maybe.

i dunno. mistakes in front of Kaz were worse. dropping a used knife on customer's lap was embarrassing. very embarassing. ur mind suddenly becomes white and Kaz could just kill you any minute. but it seems to me that people here are rather slow to anger...or they just supress it first den react calmly. hate it when such things happen..cos you know they're pissed but they dun wanna say, and it makes you feel damn sorry about the fault. but they're nice people so far. really nice and funny.

i wonder how amanda and jasmine are doing. amanda seems like she's having fun.. jasmine's having great time with her cell group mates cum coworkers. lol.

maybe more time is needed to see things clearly

i must be deaf.

2009-03-10T07:44:00.002+08:00

what the fuck.
valkryie stopped showing already.
cant believe i missed it, i just cant believe it.
in the end, i have only myself to blame.
afterall, anything that goes wrong, is my fault.

i feel like i'm the worst creature on earth. (in no relation to the above paragraph) or are the comments around me the ones that allows me to doubt. comments. why am i not suprised. every single thing people say, i ought to have trash it and move it, one time, i did otherwise. they revolved around my head like a tumble dryer. i know what i want and what i need to do, if i see a path i intend to work hard towards to, there are 2 ways. 1, if i persevere, i can achieve it. 2, if i let comments like those in my fucking tumble dryer stay long, i'm doomed.
why the fuck should i listen to comments? why. just because people been there and done that? so? life has so many paths, a twist changes a lot of things. it changes fate. and bloody hell, persistance is an annoyance. if there's such a word. i swear i could have walked out back there. i only held because i dunno how to fix the later part. what a fucking coward. i've mentioned this many fucking times, until i'm tired of saying this again. it's fixed, who cares if i've not been to the path that people been? it's their lives and they think their friends' would be just as fucking similiar. i've got really better things to do man.

7atenine

2009-03-09T00:47:00.003+08:00

working at restaurant has been fun so far. especially when you're assigned to the 900's area. ehhh, the bar area. haha. people there are eccentric but nice. and there's a nice view of the city and the upcoming IR, this place's rental costs a bomb no doubt.

people here are friendly too, super my kind: swearing like a running tap.
there's like Kars..shit, whatever his name is. greets people..wait, greets ladies with a ''meow!'' LOL. and i think it's because of him, the whole staff calls one another ''Darlin'!'' ..haha. i made 3 mistakes in front of him, there's such an intense pressure there cos his eyes are on you. but he's an ok guy. lol.

there's Gobi, the one who employed the 3 of us.
he swears loads..his fav one is ''please, fuck off.'' he looks so much like an indian..at first i heard he's a malay..but today i learnt he's indian-chinese. gobi's a friendly guy, but his friendliness scares me.i dunno why. he'd just walk pass and call my name as though there's something but when i turn, he smiles. WHAT THE?LOL. thats really lame, haha.

there's also evette and nessa, both are like super close friends i think. they're so sweet. haha. i dunno. evette like watching netball matches and nessa asks random questions..lol.. great company when you're bored at the bar(: and Fud, he grooves a lot. and Alex the bartender..oh GAVIN! french bartender!!! ayy, but he''s gone alr...aww. oh and there's Caius, whatever the spelling, the estonian who served JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE once in LA. so cool right!

there's like a lot more. olivia and shoot! i forgot her name again! both jasmine's cellmates and they're energetic people, lol. there's also jessica and lee, and dunno who else..but everyone's nice around.

ayyy, i'm exhausted.
work is really tiring and i miss school lessons sometimes, days when you can chat with teachers and laugh at students..ohwell,...fuck. i should really go sleep. panda eyes are showing..ughhh.

jollygood.

2009-03-05T13:22:00.002+08:00

i am so freaking pissed.
it's annoying that Watchmen is M18. wtf?

ever since they had this censorship shit, i feel that..i dunno. they shouldnt do this. Films are like stories, if it's meant to be violent, it should be. Why should you restrict that? The Author/Director is showing an aspect, there's a purpose. what the fuck is wrong with the censorship people? if they're saying it's unsuitable for the young i reckon otherwise. And, you cant just censor the Oscars, it's a regconition! so what if they're using words like ''lesbians'' or something like that. you don't go around censoring people's speeches and words of praise. fuck this!
And you don't go around censoring the Director's point of angle in filming. Likewise an author's stotytelling in an epic tale. It ruins everything. If Sex And The City, despite the harsh sentence of M18 has already been cut..then you might as well censor words right smack in front of the audience. Same meaning. ''oh my gawd, what the beeeep are you beeeep doing?!!!'' haha, irritating eh? Same meaning.
I think i'm not making sense here. its alright, no one understands anything i say anyway..

PUBLIC ENEMIES trailer is out. find the video yourself. lol.

Living Life

2009-03-04T01:24:00.005+08:00

A hotel in Paris

Hotel in some mountain...

evidently..hotel in middle of noewhere but exotic already

The Standard, New York

Bolivia

...cant remember this one

That. is called living.

today(yesterday rather), was barely living. i got up with my legs aching from the previous night of standing. 7atenine has a nice ambience, serving a unique latin-asian cuisine at the side of the Esplanade in a 2 unit restaurant. I spent money on food and had a heartache. this is such an upset. I shant rant further...

i just want to live life as i've seen in those pictures!!!FINE LIVINGGGG!!!

2009-02-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

QT rocks. brad pitt found his age and starts a mini infiltration. eyes open wide(:

this one caught my eye and i think its going to be pretty good. it's about immigration and stuff. should watch the trailer. haha.

i cant wait. WOLVERINE coming April 29. and GUESS WHAT, HARRY POTTER, THOR AND IRON MAN 2 releasing July 15, 2011. ohjoy. wat to do? MOVIE MARATHON LAH.

while you were sleeping hosting.

2009-02-24T22:52:00.003+08:00

HAHA. OMG. check this out..

President Obama watched his first Academy Awards from the White House last night. Following in the footsteps of last week's well-received liveblogging of the President's first foreign trip, a White House New Media intern was invited to liveblog the event from the First Family's private quarters. The post was quickly pulled, but Cinematical obtained a partial transcript.

8:33 p.m.: First Family arrives, takes the best seats. Unidentified staffer: "Great to see a gay man hosting the Oscars." POTUS kindly corrects: "That's Hugh Jack-man, not gay man."

8:47 p.m.: Penelope Cruz wins for Best Supporting Actress. POTUS calls Spain's President Zapatero to express congratulations.

9:07 p.m.: As expected, WALL-E wins Best Animated Feature. POTUS dozes off.

9:25 p.m.: First Daughters begin giggling when vampire from Twilight appears.

9:32 p.m.: Ben Stiller's appearance concerns POTUS. "When did the Night at the Museum guy become Orthodox?"

9:43 p.m.: POTUS and First Lady confer about sending girls to bed during James Franco / Seth Rogen stoner skit.

9:51 p.m.: Hugh Jackman begins another musical number.

9:52 p.m.: POTUS sneaks into kitchen, where the staff is watching the Cleveland Cavaliers crush the Detroit Pistons. Go LeBron!

10:21 p.m.: Final: Cavs 99, Pistons 78.

10:32 p.m.: POTUS amused by Will Smith.

10:46 p.m.: Surprised and delighted by Jerry Lewis' brevity; POTUS figures Congress could learn a thing or two.

10:50 p.m.: POTUS asks, "Where's Springsteen?" Upon being notified that he was not nominated this year, POTUS heads to kitchen to watch SportsCenter during presentation of music awards, returns in time to tap his toes to "Jai Ho."

...POTUS is President Obama...right? i'm not sure...

the Oscar goes to..

2009-02-23T14:06:00.004+08:00

Robert Downey Jr. american, acting as an australian, who's acting as a black. Nominated. I'm an australian, acting as an australian, in the movie australia. Host.
Hugh Jackman on ''range'' at the Oscars.

Best Actress in Supporting Role: Penelope Cruz
Best Original Screenplay: Milk
Best Adapted Screenplay: Slumdog Millionaire(1)
Best Animation: Wall-E
Best Animated Shortfilm: La Maisson En Petittis something
Best Art Direction: Curious Case Of Benjamin Button(1)
Best Costume Design: The Duchess
Best Makeup: Curious Case Of Benjamin Button(2)
Best Shortfilm: Toyland(Germany)
Best Actor in Supporting Role: Heath Ledger( was about to shed tear when amanda called.)
Best Documentary: Man On Wire
Best Visual Effects: Curious Case Of Benjamin Button(3)
Best Sound Editing: The Dark Knight
Best Sound Mixing: Slumdog Millionaire (2)
Best Film Editing: Slumdog millionaire (3)
Best Original Score: Slumdog Millionaire (4)
Best Directing: Danny Boyle for Slumdog Millionaire (5)
Best Actress: Kate Winslet, the Reader
Best Actor: Sean Penn (was expecting either Brad Pitt or Mickey Rouke)
Best Picture: Slumdog Millionaire (6)

i really thought Best Picture should have gone to Curious Case even though i have not watch Slumdog..BUT I WILL WATCH IT.(: and, i'm really glad Heath got recognised for the role. quite a number of people were about to shed tears man.. heh. i love Hugh being the host, so funny!! so ENTERTAINING! haha. maybe i'll be watching Oscars again..just to see Hugh Jackman perform again((:

Cheers.

2009-02-17T22:57:00.003+08:00

The Cathay:
i was really wondering, fighting temptations asto buying a starbucks. Starbucks Almighty!! haha. when i received 2 sample from Strabucks, one ice latte and one hot caramel macchiato. i thought God heard my prayers and so sent me such delight. Then, a storm happened. with no choice, i was to stand outside the cafe...alone..

Starbucks guy: you waiting for friend?
me: no, i'm actually working.
Starbucks guy: whoa. oh, i see.
then he went to smoke. and came back
Starbucks guy: do you want a drink? i could make one for you, it's on me.
me(of course wanting it badly but have to stop this temptation):oh its ok.
Starbucks guy: no its ok, really. tell me what drink you want and i'll make it for you.
me( whoa. got opportunity of course must take right): haha, really? ok, i would like a small hot caramel macchiato.
Starbucks guy: ok sure, after i smoke yeah? haha.

i love God. lol. He hears me and knows my weakness. and i thought the 2 samples were the end.

the main course of the year

2009-01-23T23:09:00.003+08:00

so when will i, see your face again?

OK. I WANNA..NO. I NEED TO WATCH ALL THESE MOVIES.
GRAN TORINO
PUBLIC ENEMIES( JOHNNY DEPP, CHRISTIAN BALE)
TAKEN( LIAM nESSON, FAMKE JANSSEN-she played jean-grey in x-men)
CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC
STREET FIGHTER( just so you know.. its EDMUND CHEN playing the father)
PINK PANTHER 2
THE SOLOIST( JAMIE FOXX, ROBERT DOWNEY JR)
KNOWING( NICOLAS CAGE)
THE INTERNATIONAL (CLIVE OWEN, NAOMI WATTS)
THE READER( KATE WINSLET)
NIGHT AT THE MUSEUM 2( BEN STILLER, RACHEL MCADAMS)
DRAGONBALL EVOLUTION (EMMY ROSSUM)
FRIDAY THE 13TH
FIRED UP( CLAIRE'S BOYFRIEND IN HEROES)
MY BLOODY VALENTINE 3-D(JENSEN ACKLES-supernatural)
CURIOUS CASE OF BENJAMIN BUTTON( FOR NOOBS, its BRAD PITT)
WATCHMEN
REVOLUTIONARY ROAD (LEONARDO DiCAPRIO, KATE WINSLET)
MARLEY AND ME( OWEN WILSON, JENNIFER ANISTON)
IP MAN 2( ITS COMING! ok, its in the making)
SHUTTER ISLAND( LEONARDO DiCAPRIO)
THE UGLY TRUTH( GERARD BUTLER)
THE ACCIDENTAL HUSBAND(if singapore ever knew about it)
WOLVERINE!( HUGH JACKMAN, DANIEL HENNEY, WILL.I.AM, RYAN REYNOLDS)

i missed out a lot more. there's like 120 over movies coming..SO CANT WAIT.
oh..if twilight fans are still anticipating the yet-to-be overrated part 2, dakota fanning is about to be cast as Jane..whoever that is. really none of my business...lol.

i have a dream....

2009-01-16T22:06:00.002+08:00

ayy. i should learn photoshop expert and put myself on the car..

i had a dream. i can't find my dreambook, so i'm going to write it down here.

i was in the carpark in ingrid's car with cheryl. the carpark at my house. the whole area was very empty and the only car that was beside us was ALONSO'S CAR. omg!!Alonso got out of his car with his boss and so did we. i told ingrid who he was and den she went high too( does ingrid like Alonso? i dunno). So we met him and i asked if i could take a picture with him using cheryl's camera and he said ''ok!'' happily(:
I TELL YOU, WHEN WE STOOD BESIDE ONE ANOTHER, I ACTUALLY HELD HIS WAIST AND HIS HAND WENT OVER MY SHOULDER!!! I CAN FEEL IT! IT WAS DAMN NICE. DAAAMMMMN. OLALA. DEN INGRID CAME IN HAPPILY AND SHE STOOD BESIDE ME. SO I WAS BESIDE ALONSO, NOT HER. LOL. I KNOW I LOOKED GOOD IN THAT PIC! but i din managed to see it. Alonso den said something to his boss in spanish but he was smiling!!omgggg.
I LOVE ALONSOOOOO!!

i din keep the photograph! let alone SEE IT. damn sad. but i least i stood real close to him(:

stupidity is what you're made of.

2009-01-13T22:05:00.002+08:00

oh silly me. i forgot i was an idiot.
an idiot who never gets anything right
who never succeeds in anything
and an idiot who is good at absolutely nothing.
i must getting old.

yeah, who the hell said i was good at lauguage?
take some paper and put it in your mouth please?
if you wanna lie do a better job.

and please,
if you guys knew how well we could do from our PSLE shits,
why tell us we can do better when you all knew we cant?
be a better asshole, yeah?
potential my arse. what's with all the encouragements when they were really,
REASONABLE DECEPTIONS.
and i cant believe i fell for your false encouragements!
i guess i'm really stupid huh.
gee, thanks for the support, thanks for letting me know i'll pull through indirectly.
and thanks a lot for not telling me early that i was never smart enough to be a human.
i feel so much better knowing i've been lied to, be cheated of my feelings.
Instincts were smart to tell me to seal it so i could stop being a mockery out of myself.

~~silly~~ stupid me.

unscripted

2009-01-10T01:11:00.002+08:00

when i get my salary, i'm buying Patrick Dempsey's new fragrance. he said its unisex so all the better(:

i have never been to Holland V. it sounds good, its sounds attractive but its reality disappoints everything. what i saw today was really a 21st century village. its small and crammed, its somewhat hidden within hdbs but not. this place is just, bad. EXCEPT THE FOOD. i want to try the restaurant Da Paulo. it looks fantabulous. pasta made on the spot! today, stoning for 6-9 hours is a lot better den an attempt to pass an hour of my time. must be the venue's fault. if you put 2 words like SHOPPING MALL, at least give shops like Fox, Andersons Ice Cream, Nike, Popular... or even a This Fashion. that mall was barely 2 levels fully occupied and i combed it in less den 5 min. you call that a mall?

while stoning, 2 kids were playing behind me. a boy and his younger sister. the little boy was so cute. instead of ''MARCH TOGETHER'',he shouted ''MARRSH TOOGEHHER!'' and his little sister shouted the same thing, i was about to be fully entertained by the kids mispronounciation of words when the maid said ''EVAN, DONT GO TOO FAR AWAY ARHH.'' one word can really bring back a lot of..hmm. AS I WAS SAYING, the kids were cute.

oh shit. i forgot to watch a movie!rented heard its good. that means i should stop typing. and i really mean it..did i mentioned i saw like 5 HOTTIES AND 1 CUTE GUY? maybe holland v ain that bad..

on the wings of fling

2009-01-01T21:59:00.003+08:00

WHOA. damn cool photoshoot. but i really din expect donnie yen to be like wat, 46? mandy told me his wife was hot at first..hmmm. den later not. haha. but they really know how to pose. and it seems like they enjoy it.. www.donnieyen.com check out their photoshoot. and i just realised that donnie yen only looks hotter if he's tanned. cox there are pics where he's fair and...haha. and he looks v. horrible when he's too buffed up. yeeks, scare people away. lol

manday and i made plans, movie marathons, dining at Harry's, num tank tops. so cool, we'll do all that when hopefully we collect our pay on the 5th. JUST CANT WAIT. i need to feel rich. call me materialistic but i really wanna buy clothes from armani, CK, diessel, D&G and Boss. lol, my pay cant afford me that...for now. ANYWAY... i've been doing homework and nothing could ever replace my joy in MY KIND OF HOMEWORK.(:

shit. needa watch movies.. Watchmen, The Spirit, The Women, Bride Wars, The Duchess, Marley And Me, Coraline, Transporter 3, Curious Case Of Benjamin B., Gran Torismo.. all in 2 months. :D catch me at the cinemas!!!

2008-12-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

''to watch the world in its silent fury''

as of Jan 1, its many days to:
O LEVEL RESULTS(JAN 15?), my first salary!, WOLVERINE WOLRD PREMIERE(MAY 1), MORE MOVIES, driving tests, 18 b day wonder( some know where), M18 shows!, MY REAL DRIVE ON THE ROAD(after i pass the test), .. ..

oh. there's nothing much to look forward to. OHOHOH, BRADLEY COOPER HERE I COME<3

truly madly deeply

2008-12-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

HA, DEMELZA LOVES HUGH JACKMAN TOO.
love love love. its all you can comment on Hugh Jackman.. hot! to people who have yet to watch Australia, i'm not promoting him but this show really speaks from the heart.(: go watch it and cry. yeah, i cried!! its pretty sad

why cant there be another Hugh Jackman in the world. someone tall and hot and gentleman like him. never mind, havin 11 dreams about him is good already. at least i get to fish him out of the sea, no one did that(:

it unbelieveably hard to love you but i love you anyway.

don't even know if you could tell

2008-12-23T21:24:00.003+08:00

was at Raffles City with charlene, joyce and vanessa this evening at OLALA. HOT GUY ALERT I TELL YOU.

credit goes to char cox it was her phone's cam that got the shot. omg i tell you!!! when i went nearer at one point he look at a lot of Lee Ryan and also, his parents..mann, the mama still got looks and the papa is the older version of him. LIKE FATHER LIKE SON!!!! joyce said he was looking at me at Topshop( whoa, i'm so egistic) heeee. i dun want to think far but the thought is good:)
anyway, since i love spotting hot and cute guys, maybe i should just do that on this blog. there's nothing significant in my life anyway.

met Gurleen and Uncle Allan today too. HAHA uncle allan got Facebook. wanted to ask him but i forgot..lol.

BACK TO THE DAMN CUTE GUY.. even gurleen agrees he's good looking!!! OMG... went nuts! he's single!!! haha. this is weird, those damn ugly guys are attached and good looking hotties like that guy are available. so sad! lol. even though i'm mostly a sexist i should say that there are good looking guys out there(: (JUST LIKE THE GUY IN THE MOVIE AUSTRALIA) and maybe, the old fashioned courtesy of a gentleman might still exist..

LOVE LOCKED, or not

2008-12-17T18:59:00.002+08:00

i am cold and heartless
not having feelings was exactly what i need to survive
refusal was my green light
then You came
You gave me something which i longed for
a special something.
You got my ice box a rise in temperature
now all i want is Yours
i'm only opened to You
and not anyone in this entire world
i'll run after You
running, after Your love.

i'm not loving you, the way i wanted to

2008-12-10T03:48:00.004+08:00

Fish & Co. is super fickle-minded. one minute they need people, next thing some beat-me-up looking girl say no they're not hiring. anyway, ON THE WAY to amk to meet amanda, jasmine and brandon. this indian mixed something else popped in the train..

just plain good looking i tell you. I KNOW SOME PEOPLE will go ''ok what'' . NO ITS NOT OK, FOR FUGLY singaporeans like us, this is good. already. global comparision? he's obviously miles away...

the job agency Dorcas mentioned was located in the heart of a maze, built with confusing hallways that looked like a mental hospital. everything's painted white! each different direction looked the same. eventually, we (Dorcas, Amanada, Jasmine and myself) found the way to the ''cheese'' like lab rats. i must say this one looks promising. pls Lord, grant me a place in telemarketing....

was asked many times by brandon to go gotham. first thing in my mind was Batman. there's a nicer version? called Batman of The Future love that one. but anyway, its some club in clarke quay.. let's just say i'm not the clubbish person. not your party animal...i like bars. cosmopolitan style you know? guy comes up and chat, gt to know people, or watch soccer..okay have i watched too much tv? Cashmere Mafia's got bar scenes that are attractive(: by the way.. has anyone heard of gotham? pardon my ''underage party noob-ness'', never heard it before you know, sounds unknown.

ok. this blog is the earliest blog.. its 4am now. i wanna sleep, MY 18 HOURS DAILY DOSE! oh, did i mentioned all happenings above happened 12 hours ago?

there but not there, at all.

2008-12-07T23:32:00.004+08:00

LATEST LOVE: CAM GIGANDET.
omg i tell you. i'm watching Twilight just to see him only. heard the movie isnt up to standard, but hypersmitten fans like MANDY is happy with the presentation of the sleepy eyes cast. job hunt has come to a pause. i'm taking a mini vacation, church camp. here are the events coming up this week:

Monday: Sentosa with the usual crapsters.
note to self: dun act cool and sun tan without the damned banana boat lotion.

Thursday:Body Of Lies with denise at Suntec.

Friday: Start Project Beep

Saturday-Tuesday: Church camp to some yet-to-exist place in the next door country. Heard the place is flooding. mmm.

My ka-ching is as rich as the downfall of recession, if you're lucky den you get a card, if not den too bad. and dun ask if you're getting or not please. you thick skinned shalalalas. lol truth is, i havent quite decided yet. but oh well.

dance with me through this catastrophe

HELLO MR SEXY, SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS

2008-11-26T22:05:00.002+08:00

HAHA. I LOVE HUGH JACKMAN. I REALLY LOVE HUGH JACKMAN
mr. sexiest man alive. now higly demanded on people.com

agency hunt with dorcas, char and denise today. from CBD to chinatown. i'm desperate for money and dorcas had these words on her forehead ''no money, no honey'' haha. not literally, of course. this is shit. a few months left and i need my mountain bike to scale The Little Red Dot and my Darling with the steering wheel. i need shopping in high places and i need cash for next year's slot of movies. CASH CASH CASH, COME OUT COME OUT WHEREVER YOU ARE!!!!

loads of events happening lately but its barely 21 days after Os. this is good, i'll have somewhat an eternity of boredom without cash. maybe thats a sign, to work hard on my body. i really should. something shocking tmr, haha. its cool but i hope it works out. pretty excited and fearful, hopefully i'm as good as i thought.

hard not to love you but i love you anyway!

2008-11-24T22:44:00.004+08:00

VOLLAYBALL AT SENTOSA was hell. blazing hell. lol. everyone was complaining of the pain in the body cox it was burnt, i thought i was cool, no pain and all. but when i soak myself into the sandy conditions of siloso toilets, i was numbed. the burnt was stinging it was bad, now i have red patches. please dun come and look for me and see how red i am. heh. it's just totally bad. today, i also met 2 friends through serene. brendon and roy, they were pretty funny. there was a group shot but not with me yet...

I LOVE TV SHOW and job interview at kino tmr. i am reluctant to go because of the pay. seriously, i din expect them to call. arhhh. oh by the way, if you see any ads of ALONSO in watch shops, he looks so much better ok. please, those ads were just BAD HAIR SEASON!

HE LOOKS A LOT BETTER(: i know he does, i just cant catch good pictures of him. or rather the photographers are busy snaping bloody hamilton.):
OH ALONSO!!!<3<3<3

man manner mannest

2008-11-21T19:58:00.003+08:00

IF YOU'VE GOT BRAINS, YOU'D ACTUALLY WATCH HOUSE.

Dear Lord,
thank you for creating a beautiful creature like Hugh Jackman. He is so hot and very hot.Finally the Sexiest Man Alive! Also, please let allow my friends and me to be selected for the job that we dearly want(like designer boutiques) and that the pay would be good for us.
In Jesus Name i pray,
Amen.:)

Job hunting this week was severely tiresome and fruitless. maybe i'm worrying too much, maybe i'm being cynical again but i just cant help thinking that every shop we give our contact to wont even bother to help us. even the agencies.

i caught Quantum Of Solace again with kar mun. the show is pretty good. bond finally has a new hobby called kickass and doesnt really wanna sleep around, but poor Mrs. Fields, tragic end. Nah, but there is a meaning in this show. I'm looking forward to Bond 23( in 2010 perhaps?). i expect Daniel Craig to perform just as good as this, hopefully even better. He may not be as handsome as Pierce Brosnan but the 21st Century Bond has finally evolved into a shot of brutality with a zest of charm. just like vodka with lemon. yum. i confess, i'm now a bond convert. Shit. IF ONLY i have a boyfriend for the time being, hint him to get me the Devil May Care book, den dump him. heard it's bad but who cares. i wanna read it.

anticipating event on monday. Volleyball at Sentosa. and! something's happening on that night. heh. just me and...

oh by the way. I WILL BE WATCHING TWILIGHT ONLY BECAUSE i see someone hot in there. this isnt his best pic though. if u read People magazine, ohgosh you'll drrooolll..

Edward's all yours, fans of Cullen. The sexy villain is mine.(:

in the footsteps of a lifeless

2008-11-16T21:18:00.003+08:00

its only the start of Life and i'm broke. broke like no one's business. i now fully declare i'm desperate for money. job hunt starts tmr and i hope i do get the job i'm hoping for.

lets see,
wed- REC with livia, was good. but really bad seating. i love the tension and the suprise at the end. i seriously din expect that creepy shit girl to come, if i was there i think i'd just die. lol. livia was a great company and i'm glad i spent times with her, we were really going nuts i swear.

thurs- shopping prom shoes with dorcas and ended up catching Madagascar 2. this is one animated film i'm really happy about, i love Dreamworks. of course, i'm now anticipating part 3.

fri- out with livia to town again. our destination was wheelock and because we were so broke, we nearly thought of asking people for money, livia says some really do give. in the end, we had company from the A1 class, mostly discussing the ''very anticipated'' event next week. i guess we're kinda tired so it wasnt as fun as on wed.

TODAY- mel, charlotte, eils, van and i went with charlene TO SEE HER FANTASY BOYFRIEND. the entire day was spent on waiting but at least when the boys came out we sorta waved and they waved back. wow, denise's ex-lover was the most friendliest. heh. CHARLENE LOVES HER BOYFRIEND BEYOND DESCRIPTION, SHE WOULDNT STOP SMILING SOMETIMES I FEEL THE JAW HURTS, LOL. I THINK SHE'S JEALOUS ABOUT THE RUMOURED LOVER, GO FIGHT FOR IT CHAR! HE ACTUALLY SMILED AND TURNED AT YOU, THERE'S A SIGN! HAHA.

i feel happy for char, least she had seen her lover. i bet i wouldnt be able to. Hugh Jackman's out of reach, just as Christian Bale, Mark Wahlberg and so many more. Alonso is the only one i can pray so hard to meet next year. still, my crushes are all out of reach, i'll never be able to see them. the only place i can see them on is the tv. what the! aye whatever, least i get to see ém in my dreams.

JOB HUNT tmr! please please please let me have a job where i dun see PL Lites. damned those assholes...

ANOTHER WAY TO LIVE.

2008-11-11T18:39:00.003+08:00

FOR NO REASON, i'll declare the next 7 days ALONSO WEEK. heh. the reason why i'm blogging today is to dedicate this post to 3 people. outside PL. and the nominees are(in alphabetical order), MELISSA, VANESSA AND ALYSSA(: thank you guys for being there in times of need during the once-in-a-life-time struggle. and alyssa, i see a lot of hope and faith through your strength in optimism, i cant thank you more. i'm so glad we're really friends. MEL, everytime i find worry in O level, you make it sound so much like a breeze and your sms did sort of wake me up and without it, i think i wouldnt have worked as hard. and VANGOH, ur probability solution was a drastic scare, but i thank you for ur effort and telling me online ''i'll be there'' and all. to the 3 of you, i owe you guys big time, i couldnt make it through the struggle without any of you. THANK YOU(:

I WATCHED QUANTUM OF SOLACE TODAY. any dickheads who prefer HSM over 007, suck away!!!!!wahahaha. but the theme song was just plain bad. olga is SO HOT. please please please go watch(: speaking of HSM, it made only 9.3 million bucks while Madagascar 2 had 65 something million? wow. looks liike zanessa lost to the african wildlife lesson? watch more NAT GEO WILD lah! LOL.

OK REC TMR WITH LIVIA.. SO CANT WAIT. SO CANT WAIT. SO CANT WAIT!

in the heart of the cynic

2008-11-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

yesterday was sunday. and at suntec while window shopping with my mom, we bumped onto mrs lum. HA WHAT A SMALL WORLD, SHE ATTENDS NEW CREATION. i was really shocked. we had a little chat and she was hoping for the best in combined humanites. when asked if i could assure an A, i was like..'' hmm, i think i could get it'' we laughed but i know i cant. oh, den mrs lum said she was gonna bring ms adeline loh over as well. hmm, you guys miss PL teachers? here's your hot spot. heh.

i have self declared holiday ever since sijia's party. i mean, even if u torture me like james bond in Casino Royale, i still wouldnt really quite bother about giving my best shot already. indeed, my laziness has defnied laidback. oh, Casino Royale. i just watched Tomorrow Never Dies and i thought michelle yeoh was quite ok in acting skills but i could tell SHE REALLY HAD THE ADVANTAGE OF FRENCHING PIERCE BROSNAN. haha, like who wouldnt. i mean, not that i wanna kiss Mr. Brosnan..i have preferences you know, need i say more?

watching Quantum Of Solace tmr with denise. such high anticipation. UK released it on Oct 31. WE'RE LATE, Nov 5. whatever. oh and REC with livia! we're gonna have fun i can foresee. heh. it's been a long time since i hung out with her and willingly make fools of ourselves. Hmmm, many events coming up, not big but its friends-quality-time. haha. from places like the airport to coffee club to Harry's to Sentosa and not forgetting the cinema and starbucks. Stupid Singapore may not have the best rides and vikings but at least i have friends and assured good company. i guess i could be contented, for awhile. ( i still cling on my dreams to Spain, however ridiculous and impossible)

ALRIGHT. OFFICIAL LIBERATION IS TOMORROW. EVERY PARTICIPANT OF O LEVELS, BRACE YOURSELF FOR THE THE HD LIFE.lol

fantasising the impossibilities

2008-11-08T16:25:00.004+08:00

TOM FORD is the hottest gay ever. like seriously man. 40 plus. SO WHAT. heh. if i ever turn celebrity i will want him to be my stylist. i mean..gosh! he's been labelled MR. SEX and blah.. AYYYY IDUNNO!

sijia's b day was yesterday. so, happy birthday!(: retro wasnt my thing but i did enjoyed myself there. i like the fruit punch(:.

Os. not over yet. there's still one more paper on tues. BUT WHO GIVES A DAMN? already, i'm so into party mode, alyssa wont like this. you know i admire people with strong determination. there's nothing that stops them from reaching their goal, i like that. but i'm not like that...hmm, except when it comes to movies, i try to find every way possible to watch the movie. it's a love you know?

i say i'm married to movies but i feel its the only thing i care above humans and something i'm willing to spend my life with. actors, movies, oscar...cannes film festival. yeah. no one understands this and wants this as much as i do. even though friends say ''yes i understand'' and blah. whatever. it's awfully hard to want ur dreams to come true, comes easily for many, i just dun understand why i have to go through so much and sometimes i wonder if this path i choose to chase after is right.

no wait, i'm also willing to spent m life with a PS3 and starbucks and go-karts at gear 7.(: see, they're all nouns.

cause you're my number one.

I LIKE THE WAY YOU MOVE

2008-10-12T20:48:00.004+08:00

"It's still difficult to believe what we have done today: winning in Singapore was unexpected, but we benefited from special conditions. Today we won again on a circuit that was not supposed to suit us. The team has really done a remarkable job to fight back this season and we are now the third strongest team. It's unbelievable and I am extremely happy this evening. Anything is possible now in the last two races."

zomggg. ALONSO WON!!!(THUMBS DOWN TO HAMILTON:D) i prayed real hard mannn. seriously. i told God that victory is his to take but i felt i was demanding..but look what happened! zomg! alonso won! this also showed me something, that all i need to do is just do my best and put my faith in God. because i kept telling him that alonso must win.. lol. i'm sounding insane. and because of this, my bat went flat within 10 hours. friends WERE JEALOUS that alonso won.hehheh!:D eh, least the kimi guy made it to the podium!

ITS HUGH JACKMAN'S BIRTHDAY TODAY!
crap. i cant find a pic of him cox my gallery is literally filled with alonso. ok half filled. and plus he hasnt has any photoshoots so i guess i gotta wait.:(( anyway, its his birthday! today is such a damn happy day. never felt so good before. my crush has got a victory yet again, my utmost fav actor's b-day is here. wowww. i'm so happy! I LOVE 12OCT!:D

i'm suppose to be studying right? think so.

i guess i miss you, nothing's wrong, i don't mean to carry on

2008-10-08T17:18:00.002+08:00

i'm not suppose to be here.ha. but to to such a huge obsession, i guess i want to release my ''love'' out. being flushed >3 times a day was embarrassing, i swear. but i feel happy and good. it doesnt matter if one's on the other side of the world, i'm just happy that there is such a beautiful existence.(:

please please win so that you'll come back to singapore again. meanwhile i'll save ka-chings just to see you at your favourite place again, the podium.:D

''boom'' - Sylar.

2008-09-25T18:35:00.003+08:00

capital o is coming. i dun like it. no one does. the more i think about it, the more i'm assured i'm not able to make it. the more i try to put in effort to study, the more i know, i'll never make it. its fine anyway, i never achieved anything in life, what more the exam of our lifetime? i should admit by now, that i'm stupid, never had the brains or anything. and people say i'm just not trying hard. wat rubbish. if you cant change the fact, den accept it. we arent Hiro Nakamuras you know.

if i'm Hiro, i'd summon Charles Darwin, Shakespeare, Lee Kuan Yew, Leonardo Da Vinci and Chairman Mao and absorb their wisdom. hehheh. lol, imagine if it happens, not only a conflict will happen..Mao wants communism, LKY wont like it and call on a PAP vote. Shakespeare doesnt give a damn cox he wants people to love the English Language and Charles will be at a corner making notes of different human bahviour, coming up with all the rubbish theories. Leo, will be blocked by an easil and a canvas filled with colours of the environment. HA. THEN I'LL BE LIKE SYLAR, CUT THEIR BRAINS AND THEY DIE LIKE FOOLS.lol. (except LKY, he's still alive!)

whatever.
i wont say ''Hiatus'' cox its so cliche. i'll say ''till my sorrow and miseries have been gone with the November wind, farewell.'' so cool. (:

your wisdom shall save us all- The Fall

17 years of nonsensical amusement

2008-09-18T20:43:00.004+08:00

17 years of breathing oxygen and giving out carbon dixoide. mannnn, i've got fantatic gifts from friends.
Special Highlights:
- 20 seconds of fame at the canteen from my clique.
Presents from them was bombatastic.(((:

- Huge b-day card from class clique and celebration at cafe
Card..board was nicest i've ever seen

- Mama Mia at Lido with my best friend
COLINNNN FIRTHHH!!songs were pretty catchy. love the musical.colin firth!

i'm happy today, i really am. despite jawdropping results from prelims. birthday cards had something in common: HUGH JACKMAN.(: lovvvveeeeesssss.
Thank you to everyone who contributed today, couldnt thank you enough because seriously, presents are awesome. i just got stunned. each and every one of them. above all, i'm glad to have you guys as my friend.(:

PS: just so you know, Iron Man aka Robert Downey's kid turns a year older TMR!!

BIRTHDAY BOYS

2008-09-12T20:18:00.003+08:00

HUGH GRANT, 9 SEP.

COLIN FIRTH, 10 SEP.

JASON STATHAM, 12 SEP.

yay, so many people's bday this week. there's BENJAMIN MCKENZIE and yao ming too, both on 12. on the 19th, IT'S ROBERT DOWNEY'S KID, INDIO!(: its more impt next month, cox it's HUGH JACKMAN'S BIRTHDAY(: lovelovelove.

caught step brothers(M18, fuck off people:D) today with dorcas, den headed to safra to swim. its rocks when u can tan and swim at the same time. swimming 8 laps in one hour was exhuasting. ha. hopefully we lost calories mannnn. ohohoh, i checked out www.junkfoodclothing.com and i'm advised to get ém when currency drops, now i need people to buy too so it's cheaper:D, the web's given so do check it out? interested participants ( i know there wont be any, damn. why am i doing this?) pls tell me yeah?(:

artfarts

2008-09-05T12:14:00.003+08:00

faith's work. ladies and ladies.
her ancestors has def. got connections with picasso..or van gogh( not you vanessa goh, lol) super cool i swear. i told faith that i'm gonna make her famous thru here, den she doesnt have to go school anymore..so tell the whole world about her masterpiece people!!!

well..this is my dirtpiece.
i dun expect mine to be a C even. gosh. least i know art wont be what i'm depending on.

i should have taken that chance. at least if i know i did, i could skip O levels and i wouldnt even be here by now. and, my road to final destination is a step closer.

mis guided truth

2008-08-30T20:43:00.002+08:00

if you are what you say you are
a superstar
then have no fear
the camera's here

i used to have dreams
dreams that take me far across the world
i used to have hopes
hopes that kept me bold
i used to have faith
faith that fed my spirit
..
now i am crushed
beaten down
my dreams tell me i'm a fool
no more than a clown
making fun out of herself
reality tells me i'm not worth
not worth of the dreams i hope for
not worth of anything.
life made me a mockery

so long dreams, hopes and faith
for i shall drown in a dark bottomless pit
for i am not worthy to look on the bright side
i shouldnt have listened. to any one of you.
i've been misled.

still i think of you

2008-08-28T21:58:00.001+08:00

love you to bits.

sick shit.

2008-08-27T14:50:00.003+08:00

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nooooo!!! why so inconvenient! can someone tell me what's RSVP?

prelims are sucky. the mood is just plain reluctancy( is there such a word?) and if i had known better, shouldnt have said yes to another shot at chinese Os. damned.
ohohoh, this guy Jeremy Greene added me on myspace...and i checked his profile. gosh. i like his song!!! this guy's got potential((:
oh well, last i heard he's working on a song with FUGLY LINDSAY LOHAN. yucks. i bet the song will CRASH CRASH CRASH! hehh.

show you wat's happening on the other side of the world.

how can?! i'm in pain while people are in a state of trance. damned. and plus its GATECRASHER!!): such kind of parties are so much better than those lousy clubs..zouk, dxo and blah. so shit. then again this is singapore. dun expect much. lol.

LONDON 2012! i'll save money, pack and go. dun intend to come back. haha

the bathroom plan

2008-08-19T21:36:00.003+08:00

titled: Not The Nine O' Clock News- The Bathroom Plan

zomg. cannot stop laughing.
rowan atkinson, better known as BEAN. wants to have a proper bathroom. however he ends up installing more and more cubicals everywhere possible! LOL. LISTEN AND OBSERVE THE SHORT COMEDY. really cannot stop laughing.
like who wants to put that excessive amount of toilets!!!

davud klemperer is the new love

2008-08-16T22:27:00.002+08:00

david klemperer!! lovessssss

man, david klemperer is the second German i'm in love with. europeans are hot...why cant they come to singapore and mix breed with our locals, lol. ha den we'll have hybrid singaporeans.

1.84m and 28 years old. fantastic. has 4 ticks on my list. oh well. not like i'm gonna get him. haha, ms nair says if i have a boyfriend in poly or wherever in the next 3 years, she's gonna laugh and i'm to bring her to Ben and Jerry's. However, if i dont get one( like duh), she's gonna get me 10 games of bowling. lol, play until fingers break. i'm so gonna win this, i'm so gonne prove you all laughing heads WRONGGGG. lol. really ok. stop laughing and reciting that dumb theory.
erm..but if there are really guys like Hugh Jackman and David Klemperer..den i'll say yes to this weird love relationship.(:

haha, i daydreamt about Hugh Jackman being my form teacher or something. so the class must go ''Good Morning Mr. Jackman''..think i'll laugh everytime i greet him. i will never sleep at all and i will ADORE going to school. haha, Mr. Jackman. so freeking weird.nonono..MATH TEACHER! i will sure ACE THE DAMN SUBJECT. hmm maybe science teacher...LIKE BIO. haha, den i think i'll just suffocate every practical lesson. nonono! i must fail in the subject..den stay back to look for him. THATS RIGHT. yeah, if he really comes, evan eng wont even make it on the list. heh
you see, that's why i always look stoned during class

Death Race here i come. HEH

2008-08-14T19:26:00.002+08:00

how is it possible my dumb dumb friends dunno how to appreciate House? yeah u dumb dumb..dunno how to watch such a damn good show.LOL

why is the sky blue?MORNING? what time is it? 7. crap, i missed my daily wake up call. i'm late. school!what's friday's timetable! PE! shit, i havent even pack my bag. what the hell. how come time flies so fast..was i that tired?? i opened the door and saw my parents, ''your dinner over there'' said my mom. CHEY. my dumb 2 hour afternoon sleep.

my art. gosh. i have yet to open the wraper of my 'newly bought' canvas. i'm ultra slow and yet my heart isnt pumping the way it pumps for the word: emergency, urgency. i feel relaxed, somehow knowing that everything will be alright. to catch up with time, i gotta make a committment to stay back after school everyday. what fuck. except fridays, i wanna watch my HOUSE. oh but the Beijing Olympics..ok. i'll stay back, ART, YOU HAPPY NOW?):

i realised ms nair and lin lao shi talks about me. about what on earth stories, i soo dunno. but i did give lin lao shi my word that i'll let her see my artpiece(notice: i never use the word ''masterpiece'')

THE TIME NOW IS 1950. DENISE JUST CALLED IN TO SAY SHE HAD WON TICKETS TO 'DEATH RACE' ZOMGGG!! JASON STATHAM! damn lame, said the contest requires a reason why u wanna watch..Denise said ''Jason Statham is hot and it looks like this movie will make it to the box office'' such a random reason. but guess what, the whole ''Jason Statham is hot'' thing was the answer they're looking for. OLE! DENISE KIM AMBROSE YOU ROCK!:D. but you liar..lol. you never like him..i do!

:o who says Hugh isnt hot? <3

2008-08-10T21:49:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday MOM. The 2kg Brownie Cheesecake Fudge was awesome, so awesome my throat's inflammed. lol

just got this message from Mel on way back home, said she watched Someone Like You
I just watched. He looks hot in that show.Haha
zomggg. Miss Hugh Jackman..can only wait for his next show to come out during Christmas. (Australia with Nicole Kidman) ayy, some say Hugh looks hot in SWORDFISH, some say gentleman in KATE AND LEOPOLD and many agree he's hot in SOMEONE LIKE YOU. i think he's just damn hot everwhere.. let's see. i happened to just randomly grab some pic..

:D.
shit, math tmr. 0900-1500. damn. i know i'm gonna miss some olympic events. will anyone be so nice to tell me the time for the following events: BEACH VOLLEYBALL, VOLLEYBALL, TENNIS, HIGH JUMP, LONG JUMP, HOCKEY, ..there's no skiing right? oh..and WOMEN'S FOOTBALL. thank you!!

see, liking ''old men'' cant be that bad after all

more telly, less studyyyyy(:

2008-08-04T18:08:00.002+08:00

now tuning: Armin Van Buuren ft. Nadia Ali, Who Is Watching

i love House. i dunno why. used to watch it for the sake of it. and at the end of the show i feel so sleepy and yet a bit smarter. Dr. House is damn smart! intelligence is sexy heh. but no, i dun like Hugh Laurie, lol. i like Dr Robert Chase! Jesse Spencer ((: love the sarcasms in the show. it on season 5 now.. and man, i din expect House to fall in love. LOL. pretty unlikely it seems, he's always either watching GH or playing Nintendo..haha
I WANT TO BUY THE DVD!!IT'S GOT SEASON 1-3 so farrrrrr.
frankly, i get influenced by tv shows like this one..after watching House, i think i wanna become a doctor. LOL. laugh all you want, i want to laugh OUT LOUD too. what rubbish ambition.

Pushing Daises is so beautifullll! Lee Pace is so damn tall, and looks good in black(: heh, he once said not being able to touch is damn sexy cos you gotta find ways to connect with your other partner and stuff. haha. whatever.

anticipating movies movies and movies. so many movies, so little time):

i love jason statham

2008-07-30T16:52:00.003+08:00

TRANSPORTER 3 IS COMING! JASON STATHAM!!!

volleyball vibe is back. heh. for 2 weeks, clique and i were going crazy again. this time, amanda, eliza, fangs and demelza joined in too. volleyball is fantastic. mrs tng came in twice. once we had a match and i spiked and she couldnt catch and i won!!

i think ms koh tells ms chew whatever crap i told her in the bus..
was waiting for clique to come out and ms koh was beside me waiting for ms chew
me:morning ms chew
ms chew: morning. i hear you talk a lot in the morning
(i couldnt think of wat to say)
me: haha, yeah. ms koh and i are bus mates.
(lol, i asked ms koh if we could be bus mates she said it sounded wrong)
ms chew: oh really? (she kinda laughed a little)
me: yep(:

lol. nvm. it's a joke u guys wont quite understand.

day with a best friend

2008-07-27T21:42:00.002+08:00

cell with cheryl felt good(: it's always nice to have conversations with her.

spent afternoon with easty and mel. looking for my 'WHY SO SERIOUS' shirt led to a disappointment. i was upset of cos, because ''out of stock'' means others have it and i dun. i just dun.): hmm, welcome to my ill-fated life i suppose.
easty left halfway so mel and i wondered around city hall. had this impromtu decision to catch X-FILES: I WANT TO BELIEVE and we ended up at Marina Sq. haha, we couldnt stop ''banging'' into people's way and all. and we kept laughing at loads of stuff; came to realisation that writing that damn letter to evan eng was a bad memory. lol. Zara was our haunt but this season wasnt really nice.

the movie was rather average. but i liked how Scully was determined despite the odds. the whole ''dont give up'' and ''i want to believe'' had my thoughts related to studies, you could alr do the math.

man, you know there was this guy beside me, i looked around at the audience and we looked at each other, it's like he tried to smile at me but i gave the 'huh whats going on' look. and den when i was talking to mel during the show, i saw him turning to me at the corner of my eye. such a weirdo, i thought he was gay please. when the lights came back, gosh. dun even talk about it. he still looked at me. like what the?

but anyway, day was nice with a best friend. havent hung out together for quite awhile. and i'm glad i wont be spending my b-day alone(:

Christian Bale is love

2008-07-22T19:45:00.003+08:00

i love Christian Bale, you better not like him.

Joker's the nicest villain i've ever seen. i mean, he defined the word villain itself. insanity crafted by evil. some villains want something for their own benefit, Joker, performed by Heath was GOOD. loved the way he did the 'WHY SO SERIOUS' part. Batman on the other hand, i feel awful lot sorry for him. He's like the most realistic superhero i've come across and what he does is simply not appreciated. it was thrown back at him. i dunno how to put it but i feel a lot for the character. the story was pretty good, evidently grounded with an outstanding cast( most credit goes to Heath, haha). oh yes, CHRISTIAN BALE IS HOT. how many times have i said that?

fel, xiu and i were heading to the toilet in the library. i saw this guy in white specs. i dunno what kept my eyes on him..until..
fel: isnt that evan eng?
me: that one? huh? no.
fel: yes! you see properly..
me: where got..dun even look like
we entered the library and i tried to stare freaking hard. fuck yeah. it was him. LOL. as always, i din know how to react.

21st century life

2008-07-16T19:58:00.002+08:00

there's ewan mcgregor advertising for Davidoff too, i just have a hard time finding it. man, you should watch the commercial, it's so damn beautiful. I JUST LOVE EWAN MCGREGOR!!!

Dark Knight opens tmr!
CHRISTIAN BALE, AARON ECKHART, HEATH LEDGER(God Bless him) huge stars huge MONEY. heh. fucking random.

since i'm freaking bored, i made this list of 10 things i want to do when i'm 18:
1. IF PVD OR ATB EVER HITS SINGAPORE AGAIN, I'M GONNA GO!
2. wine, wine and more wine! think i'll become a regular at the Denise wine shop
3. i wanna try suba diving
4. the bar and join the enthushiatic atmosphere of live soccer matches:)
5. watch every movie possible( hmm that could be done)
6. try buying a high heel shoe(NAH THATS BULLSHIT)
7. cycle round singapore
8. speak proper spanish( hmmm)
9. swim inside underwater world with sharks
10. i'm gonne try stealing.

OK! DONE WITH THE LIST. off to watch The Importance Of Being Earnest

spiritual journeys of the latent havoc

2008-07-10T21:44:00.003+08:00

i so cant wait for mama mia to open. it opens on my birthday and i'm going to watch it(: with whom? no one. like duh, everyone's mugging their life away for the O level. Cheryl was right, i'm such a laidback person, like the aussies. probably because i cannot handle stress, or, i've submit to my own beliefs that i was never a potential brilliance. then again, i'm a cynic. there's nothing left to say.

money brings me happiness. i know it that cant be bought but yeah, whatever. i'm so desperate for ka-chings. i was scrolling town, 3 hours and so many things caught my eye. if i had the wealth of Paris Hilton, i could have just shouted at the junction of the crossroads: I'M BUYING ORCHARD ROAD DOWN. nonsense. i dun like some of the malls.
anyway, these things caught my eye
Borders: The Court Of Air- $39.90
Woonderland: Oh, Charlie! shirt- $59
Far East: 007 shirt- $36
(i'm suprised its still there, felicia wanted to get the snow patrol one, apparently its gee oh an eee.)
hmm, i'm sure i saw loads of other things..but whatever..i think i wanna save up. i know its just fucking impossible cox movies are still my TOP piority. i was in such a terrible mood swing when i decided to give up Hancock and 21 to watch The Dark Knight and one other movie.

everyday in my mind i hear things like
''oh sarah you screwed up idiot. look at the fucking mess you did. you miserable piece of shit.'' hmm, self-condemnation made me see things in a different perspective; a trance of living illusions. maybe they're not illusions to begin with.

you even set my world into motion

2008-07-05T22:36:00.004+08:00

Ken Hirai is HOT. his voice is like shayne ward's but way softer and songs are a bit of JT style, with a twist of jap. hmm, still learning how to like it(: i kinda like ''fake star''. :D

OUTING WITH Diesel and Round at vivo and town today, the entire day. there were sales everywhere..its still on and i SO WANTED ARMANI BADLY!! walking was tiring but pretty much enjoyable. talking and talking about shitty stuff and looking at clothesss!
ANDDDDD one more thing: DIESEL AND I SAW SO MANY CAUCASION HUNKS! zomggg. ranging from different height and ages. haha. oh and while at vivo there was this huge ship or boat or whatever..hmm. anyway one or two of the sailors were cute(SMILE) but they were from Russia. i know Russian dancers are HOT.(:

ok. damn tired. dun wanna talk or blog anymore.
all i wanna say is that: i've never seen so many good looking men in toen and vivo today and it was goooood. now i feeling like heading to Harry's Bar and watch soccer.:D

''..that was foreplay, now you're fucked''

2008-06-28T21:58:00.003+08:00

My hands were sweating with the ticket and my heart was pounding very badly. Then again you cant blame me, i dont even look like 18. eventually, i made it in, my hands were shaking with the M&Ms i was holding.found my seat beside eileen and Deception started.the movie wasnt quite gripping enough and the twists and turns were pretty cliche. except for the explosion. my heart dropped a bit cox it was abrupt. i din think the movie was pretty much of M18 because the 15 sex scenes were not as much as what i've seen in other NC16 movies. ok maybe Hugh used too much 'fuck'. lol.( Man, Hugh Jackman WAS SO HOT WHILE PLAYING TENNIS)

i'm just wondering, have u seen a pair of eyes so..'mesmerizing' that u helplessly stared at the guy? yesterday i was with rachel yee( 8.50 for Robert Downey's cameo was worth it:D) and a pair of green eyes attracted me, i just stared. and then i realised the guy was staring at me, shit. he smiled but i thought it was someone behind me so i turned away from him and looked back at him, he was smiling to himself. and i turned behind there was no one. SHIT. he was smiling at me, lol. i asked rachel if she saw that pair of eyes and yeah, it caught her attention too. haha. awkward situation.

today was good. i enjoyed myself and i'm sure everyone else did((:.(someone should have vid cam the way we 'bumper car-ed' thru citylink)
ya know i dunno if i look terrible or wat but the fact that i've been looked at and smiled at twice..there's just something wrong. first i was at the POPCORN POP, at the cashier guy was smiling and looking at me in the eye while talking, super weird. funny how we kept smiling and talking, lol. he looked pretty good actually but he's short.(asians..no, singaporeans) THENNN, at another movie shop downstairs this really tall guy was telling me about framing the posters and blah. now he wouldnt keep his eyes off me and kept showing me the different frames. all i did was ask how much the Robert Downey Iron Man poster cost. but he was friendly and being nice.

by the way, tell me what u think of my blog song? i really like it you know.

too much is not enough

2008-06-22T19:30:00.005+08:00

this is just 1 min. you should watch man.

i cried in X3 again. it was so sad! for those who watched, what triggered my tears was the scene when Xavier was trying to save Jean and before he became dust he was like 'Dont, let it control you' and then he smiled a bit. poof, dust.
ahhh, Hugh Jackman...he better not screw WOLVERINE up. i swear..it's all shot in Sydney..wat the crap is there to film but office buildings and opera house? lol.

bloody school's starting. please, i have not even enjoyed my hols, then again what's there to enjoy. the only thing that keeps a smile on my face are starbucks and MOVIES. movies are srsly my companion and like vangoh said ''wah lao, even a human can lose to shows, what is this man?''

whatever. no mood to berlorg already. SO LONG ELLEN, ROVE LIVE IS MY NEW ADDICT.<3

hollywood superheroes are the sex

2008-06-14T20:01:00.008+08:00

i just realised that most of marvel superheroes are potrayed by my fav actors! erm.. almost. take a look:

first and formost, my 'husband'(:
if anyone knows hugh jackman, the instant flashback of wolverine in XMen movies would hit their mind. i'd still love him even if he turns 70))):(thats a horrible age)

then we have the summer hit- Iron Man played by charming and witty Robert Downey Jr. man i swear, the first time i saw his name i got reminded of the whooper Jr in BK. i dunno why. when i watched him in Iron Man, this guy himself is already a masterpiece; need i say more?

Edward Norton in the upcoming The Incredible Hulk. i saw him playing the villain in The Italian Job and i hated him. because he was a mean bad guy in the show. lol. i kinda thought he's mixed blood, like dutch or spanish somehow? apparantly, he's pure american. i think the characters Edward play is best in those olden times, like The Illusionist. that show was a good one.

did you know Jake Gyellenhaal was considered to play the role of The Dark Knight? eventually the role went to CHRISTIAN BALE. this one's sizzling hot. char says he hardly smiles. i kinda agree but if you watch Maxim Fashion: Christian Bale, he did smile a few times. so, WHO WANTS TO WATCH THE DARK KNIGHT?

Brandon Routh. i hardly watch his shows, frankly i'm not a fan of Superman. but i must say this guy's really good looking. i have the magazine, like that page. in full size. really good looking in the black suit. still, i think the other actors are better than him.

finally, we have Mr. Spidey-Tobey Maguire. i know fel likes him. i've got no comments becuase like brandon routh, i hardly see his shows. this question still remains in my head: Is Tobey the best Hollywood could think of or was there a better unknown potential which they overlooked or din realise? ohwell, Spidey 4 is working in Tokyo now, could we do much? but the trilogy worked out pretty well so far.

think i've caught all except Superman( really, i'm not a fan. even if chris reeves got up from the grave and did it, i'd still give it a miss) and The Incredible Hulk. BUT I'M WATCHING IT, COX I SAW TONY STARK AKA ROBERT DOWNEY IN IT. anyone watching??

seven septembers of sacred rendezvous

2008-06-12T22:47:00.005+08:00

kevin zegers!

out to celebrate quan hui's b day.
ehub, downtown was huge but not huge enough. if only it was more for the shopping kind like D&G, Calvin Klein or Armani boutiques. ok, maybe even Zara. cathay was a temptation as The Incredible Hulk and The Happening opens today. alyssa says The Happening is M18. grr. anyway, we started off by singing(no, not me) at Kbox. i tried their vodka with coke. WTF. so disgusting! worse mix off vodka ever, i mean, since when was vodka bitter?!
had steamboat for dinner at bugis, gosh. we were making a fool of ourselves, look for me if you wanna know what happened. this takes EXPESSION to understand the humour. we ate like swines to make $18.80 worth. in the end, most of us looked like pregnant women. ok, that's too much.

ohohoh, i was on hugh jackman's fan site yesterday...check this out.
Fancy lunch with Hugh Jackman? Dream on, right?

Wrong. The star of Wolverine has offered a day of his time as an auction prize in a Noosa Anglican Church fundraiser, which will raise money towards building an orphanage in Nepal.

The winning bidder will be flown to Sydney where they will visit the set of Hugh’s new movie. They will receive a framed and signed photograph of Hugh, have their picture taken with him, and will also get to have lunch at Fox Studios with the Boy From Oz himself.

bye, i'm off to dream again. i know i'll never be chosen to be flown to Sydney.never.

we can stick around and see this life through

2008-06-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS NAIRRR.
this is tiring. coming to school everyday to do art): well, at least rachel was there and we could yada yada about how to get to robert downey himself, address or his son..it will be an experience you know. finding ways to meet a celebrity(: like rachel said ''it makes me feel complete'' lol.

anyway, i was scrolling her ipod and i came across this Santana song. it's damn nice. probably put it up for blog song another time.
went out with denise in the afternoon and i'll vow, NEVER to eat Gelare's waffle. it's ugh! i guess it's too filling.
sigh, i need ka-chings! saw Devil May Care and Iron Man Movie Trading Cards many hours ago. i want them so badly. i know, i'll dream, den i can have the book. BUT UGH!I CANT READ THE CONTENTS!!!

anyone watched FUR? ehh, nicole kidman and robert downey jr. good?bad? anyone?

i'll sit down and sigh and do nothing about it

2008-06-07T19:36:00.003+08:00

vindication from faces of horrific reality

this is for yesterday.
as all particpants know, yesterday was a draining event. like vangoh said, it was physically, emotionally and mentally. mel and i met up with vangoh's friends for the first time. i know one was ivan, if i'm right the other one was teck chye.( correct spelling?) caught kungfu panda and jack black brought animation to higher level of energy(:. i still want to watch SEX AND THE CITY though.
man i tell you the entire day was conversations after conversations. i waited for a time to add a bit of humour but time never came. after mel left, talking was all that kept us 'entertained'..oh, did i mentioned that marina square's wan ton noodle in HK style is delicious? love the wan tons...

rachel came to me in the morning(still yesterday) and brought up the subject of robert downey jr ah the bad boy who's taking hollywood by another storm since iron man. who wouldnt love him?( i can think of many...) i'm kinda glad least someone else likes robert downey..in BOTH of my cliques, no one gives a damn!!): but then again, everyone has their own interests, so i understand. but its just that whenever you're excited to tell someone something, you cant find the right one. rachel yee was my salvation.:D anyway, there're loads of movie coming up next week, better stock up my cashhh. and there's a hugh celebration coming up.:)
oh i read this just now.
What was your favorite of the Iron Man suits? The original, the silver one or the main one?
You never forget your first time. So…

Hey, what a great time to ask you about when you lost your virginity!
Mm-hmm!

ok i know it's not funny but i laughed! never mind.

hawt hort hot!

2008-06-04T19:52:00.004+08:00

say 'hello(:' to Adam Savani the flexidancer:D

zomg. char showed me this video ACDC vs M&M cru thing and adam is HAWTTTT. den i saw robert hoffman

HAWWT!
MAN. both dancers are hot hot hot!! i'm melting pretty badly.
jake shia hugh robert adam-> global heating babeh!!!
by the way, INDIANA JONES was a fantastic classic piece of work and shia is so..drop dead handsome!!!note to FEL: looking forward to Eagle Eye and New York, I Love You

R.I.P Yves Saint Laurent

2008-06-02T18:59:00.004+08:00

i tried to chill but you're so hot that i melted

another great fashion titan has accompolished his purpose on earth.R.I.P Yves Saint Laurent. am not quite a fan but i think it's

here's the 5 things i do during hols.(well, the fact that i wake up at 1500, there's nth much left to do..is there)
-fight temptations of eating to eat is to sin, to eat is to sin
-to study or not to study? oh look, my old x-men comic..
-what time is it now? what day is it today..any shows..yes, no..
-i wish i'm a millionaire..i wish i could drive along the Med. Sea!..i wish
-oh hughjackman...oh jakegyllenhaal..oh shialabeouf..''save me from this helpless plight!!''

Mel, Vangoh and i were talking about what? oh, men. ha. stuff like manners. what sort of manners he's gotta have and blah.. reminded me of an article in People. fashion designer Tom Ford he said for men to be sexy 'stand up when a woman leaves the table, read the newspaper every morning; its good to be updated and i cant remember the last point. ohwell. it's not like such kinda men exist so no point hoping for one to exist.):
AH WHATEVER.

INDIANA JONES THIS WEEK! CANT WAIT. SHIA SHIA SHIA SHIA SHIA SHIA((:

up and down rolled the hormones

2008-05-28T20:04:00.002+08:00

Transformers 2 in 2009.watch out for these HAWT DUDESSS

here's what i found while reading the dictionary
sexless: neither male nor female; lacking sexual desire or attractiveness
i'm one!

crashed into vantay's house with char. experimented her 3 in 1 oven thing..there was like a coffee maker, microwave and mini frying pan in one! olala.i mean it was really cool. on the oven it says: BREAKFAST MAKER. best.
then we played scrabble. lol, char and i tried to open ways while vantay enjoys shutting them. unstoppable laughter along the way..either we were flooded with vowels, or we tried to form new words of our own. wished time din move..):

sent a message to Jon Favreau, in case you DONT KNOW. director of Iron Man. complimented the movie and blah. haha. feels weird, sending a message to someone from Hollywood. i know this is his profile cox i watched this video interviwing him and he said he's got this myspace(they showed it) and asked if iron man would be a hit in 2006. this guy's got vision..but like i said, directors must have vision, ya know..

oh, regarding Fergie's hit Labels Or Love..isnt the answer OBVIOUS?!!
D&G, CK, Armani, Miss Sixty, Ben Sherman, Chanel..

ehh??

2008-05-24T23:29:00.002+08:00

ok, firstly, i'm a sucker for com. applications and secondly, i know his pose dun look right...he's just 5 years old. forgive him yeah? lol.
that would be my cousin. fat, overweight and strangely adorable. has to lie down somewhere after every meal

my paternal grandmom's b day today. gathered at my aunt's and i attempted to revise my chinese, 15mins later i was watching Animal Planet.

i frowned when i came for math lesson today..until eunice said she watched Iron Man and mentioned that the lead actor is charming i wouldnt say..ok there is a small precentage to that..i would say it's all about his wit and humor, he brought iron man into a lively character. apart from the many marvel heroes, iron man is energetic. i'm sorry, is that a grammar error?

the highest tempreature for June is expected to rise to a maximum of 38 degree celcius

inside my mindless studio

2008-05-22T20:10:00.003+08:00

music + laughter + wine + cash = welcome to life baby!

i've spent my time watching Rove, Jonathan Ross, Unscripted.. and like so many more. i've been dreaming to LIVE IN VEGAS ever since i watched What Happens In Vegas i want life! zomg. i must be drunk. watching interviews on youtube is fantastic, actors unwind a bit and talk crap, act crap and talk crap.
here's what i found from the 20 bucks in 20 seconds game..

ROVE: and lastly...who would you turn gay for?:D
Keanu Reeves: i hear, that if i say that i would turn gay for you(Rove), i'd get 40 bucks

Robert Downey Jr: .. ..whadda hell are you talking about?!..... probably the butler we had?Patrick..tell him we're doing something skimpy.

Daniel Radcliffe: oh..i will have to say Albert Einstein because, intelligence is sexy.

Matt Damon: erm..that would have to be Ben Affleck. haha!

Robin Williams: .... .. Mel Gibson!

this game rocks. 'victims' still get 20bucks anyway. i feel weird these days, sometimes, i just wanna get up and dance. sometimes, i wanna do a middle finger during assembly. other times, i feel like picking a fight. my hormones are not correct these days. i need an escape, badly. i need something that will free my mind from all this bullshit i'm facing. losing my way

shoo robert downey

2008-05-20T21:24:00.003+08:00

ROVE: who would you turn gay for?
Hugh Jackman: ....i think you know my answer..George Clooney
ZOMGGGG.

MOVE OVER, BAD BOY ROBERT DOWNEY...hehheh. i LOVE HUGH JACKMAN!!!
i may like so many actors for their amazing talents in the entire world..my heart still goes out to hugh jackman(((: and just so you know, i think be it actors or actresses we should like them for their performance on screen more than looks. i mean, of course looks are impt but it's their work that gets appreciated at the end of the day.

and please, catch made of honor(patrick patrick patrick). i cried...yes it was sad at one point.

full (laughing) retard

2008-05-18T20:15:00.004+08:00

groove it like you mean it(:

towning alone wasnt that bad. i thought i was lonely like shit..haha. but not. eventually eileen was my companion for the day, i pleaded her to come so i could buy an M18 show. olala. guess wat, the cashier din even bother to look at our faces, guess money is an impt piorty. afternoon with eileen was great, talk loads of crap and numerous attempts of trying to treat her. lol. i will make that happen someday though.

came home and heated the telly by watching the rented eastern promises. how should i put it..not for the faint hearted definitely. i din quite understand why ms chew and critics said it was so damn good. it was good but not to an extent of high praises. perhaps i fail to see at their level.

immediately after the show, i tuned to watch...my M18 show. it was freeking hialrious, laughed every 5min. its either the actions or whatever the said. lol, and michelle monaghan is HAWT. ((: sadly i watched halfway as parents were coming back. damn. i'll shush about my little show thats a certain thing. hehheh.

and hey check this out( WAIT, THIS IS FOR MOVIE 'POTENTIAL' BUFFS, OTHERWISE YOU WONT UNDERSTAND A SHIT:D)
''Well, everyone knows you don’t go full retard. Check it out. Dustin Hoffman, Rain Man. Look retarded, act retarded, not retarded. He can count eight decks of cards. Slow, yes. Retarded, no. Tom Hanks, Forrest Gump. Slow, yes. Retarded, maybe. Got them braces on his legs. But he charmed the pants offa Nixon and won a Ping-Pong competition. Can’t win fuckin’ Ping-Pong being retarded. Then we got the master, Peter Sellers in Being There. Infantile, yes. Retarded, no. Man, you went full retard.” Downey glares at me, whispering in his Osirus voice, “Never go full retard.” He cracks himself up, pauses, gets it back, and says, “You don’t believe me, ask Sean Penn. 2001. I Am Sam. Went full retard. Went home with nothin’.”

thats a good one. good analysis.

2008-05-15T22:48:00.002+08:00

MY AUDI R8!!!!damn tony stark

yay! rachel likes robert downey jr too! he's a darn funny and witty actor. AND CHARLENE: NO. I DUN LIKE LIKE HIM. I LIKE HIS TALENTS, AS AN ACTOR. NOT WHATEVER YOU THINK. lol. i ought to be careful with how i say ''i like..'' esp. an actor. darnit. i expect WOLVERINE to be really better than this..or equal. i cant imagine how genius the mind of jon fauveau is. i think i't takes a lot to b a director, like u need to have a visionary beyond the actors perspective and the audience's too. an element of suprise is not an easy catch. by the way, robert downey was not jon's choice for iron man. robert worked his way in through a 3 min screen test. wow.

nuff said, those who got time, watch this( NO, THIS IS NOT THE ALLY MCBEAL ONE). it's super crap and it's one of a kind ad. feat. volvo V50 and the many sides of robert. lol, it's damn funny((: 6mins and this is just part 1, enjoy(:

IRON MAN:D

2008-05-12T20:40:00.002+08:00

ok genius, one iron man suit express to singapore on the fly

mygosh, iron man was SO GOOD. i mean, it was really really good! ok, its damnit good. haha, caught it with sleepyeyes char. i always thought iron man would never make the cut, this show proved me so badly wrong. and robert downey jr. is clearly the perfect one for this role, haha.

i think iron man's actually pretty ordinary. iron and latest technology..ohman! his techonology, perfecto! he could even talk to computers, haha. it was just so good(i'm sorry, it's really good). iron man's just like batman. (CHRISTIAN BALE!) no superpowers and they impressed the audience of marvel comics. i guess there're a few more..but anyway, the only thing i like about hollywood's iron man is the humour. ha, it's fantastic. i mean normally other superhero's character and behaviour are like quiet,(wolverine's like wild) blah blah. iron man's a pretty lively one. humor is good(: ok, think should stop here..OH WAIT, NICK FURY. THE LAST PART. i get the feeling there's gonna be the avengers ..hmm..

hitman hitman here i come!

too much to handle too little to control

2008-05-08T21:17:00.004+08:00

where are all the men with their gentlemen-ess?

watching that with mrs wentworth miller. hmm. i'd like to be called mrs hugh jackman. yee.so old. erm, mrs wolverine. what the,oh forget it, lol. i seem to like the hughes.EXCEPT THE PLAYBOY FOUNDER. DUH!! hugh grant, the darn first one. lol. i only like his..i dunno): then HUGH JACKMAN, dur, reason: obvious.<3 then i saw a familiar face a couple of times, when i read the mag, i realised it's hugh dancy oh man, clare danes's boyfriend. brit. oh hugh grant's english, hugh jackman's half english..WOW.
see, english guys are HAWT.

4 more days till blood money plays in my com.i'll be the player of course.

step too far too long too late

2008-05-06T16:16:00.004+08:00

his name is eric her name is sarah and they both had a trip(:

fever gone down within 24 hours. what a record. geog was my most satisfied paper so far. i have got no comments for the rest.

by now, many have known about this so called conflict.
i tried today, chem papers were all over the table, i wondered if i should, eventually decided and i started looking for her name on the ws.
''yixi, can you help me find my paper...?''
boy, i guess i took too long to think.

falling apart like a shipwreck

2008-05-02T23:49:00.002+08:00

hard to stay strong and see a spark of optimism.
hard to be determined and focus with all your strength
hard, to survive. last long? probably not.
i know it's there, i need to find and regain life, my drive.
you're as strong as you wish to be, Clarice
-Hannibal

the effort for the change

2008-04-26T12:21:00.003+08:00

my sexy love.. oh no. denise will kill me. RUN!

i'm totally addicted to Hannibal. my gosh, i've never seen any villian as clever and dark like him. anthony hopkins potrayed really well. kudos!:D

swimming at safra club last evening with dorcas. pool was awesome, managed to swim frogstyle with ease..except for the breathing part, still gotta work on it. ha. had oyster omelette and fried kuay teow for dinner and was total fab. on the way home, i decided to call my dad who was looking for food. so we ended up in his fav restaurant, had my all time fav calamari rings in which they call butter squid(the marinate is so diff). was so good.

think i should hiatus. mid years on the way..in fact, it alr made its way! lol. hmm, if i were to look into my 'to-do'list, none of the tasks given would be ticked. and plus, there's a price to pay for that. grr, better get going.

intoxicated with desire

2008-04-22T20:12:00.002+08:00

THE OTHER BOLEYN GIRL was great. too bad alyssa missed it.(ALYSSA: i know you and i have a common enemy[scarlett], but the show was great and the character she potrayed was a piece of work) one of the nicest show i've watched. i think nicest shows were like: 3:10 TO YUMA, THE BUCKET LIST and THE OTHER BOLEYN GIRL

i managed to speak full chinese sentences today, after 3 years or so.it was hard, really. especially when you're made to so-called work with your enemy, one whom you regard it's existance as untraceable. it was very awkward, according to my friends, my expression did say i wasnt happy at all. indeed i wasnt and i shant eleborate further.

was having a convo with char and the topics led to something like '' so even if next time u meet hugh jackman/grant in heaven u won't know who are they coz if u do.. then all the time u'd be worshipping them and not God..
i felt an instant saddness overwhelmed me. because as much as i want the years to pass, i'm afraid. Hugh's a catholic.
Dear God, please dont let him die in Hell. he's a very good man
shoo, i'm very sad now.

feelings are like clothes in a tumble dry

2008-04-20T19:33:00.003+08:00

top floor with no disturbing, room service in the morning

i learnt my lesson, again. I WILL NEVER STARVE MYSELF LIKE SOME FAMINE VICTIM AGAIN. gosh, gobbling hokkien mee and oyster omelette with chilli was even the wront step to start. but the acid had actually attcked my stomach even before i hit the swimming pool on friday, it just din hurt so bad till i had the oily dinner. i realised i wasnt suppose to start off with oily food! and chilli, my friend now turn threat, made things worse. i was like a half dead frog. i'm sure dorcas must have forced herself to finish as much as possible.SORRY LADYBLOOM!!):

studied with class clique @ mos b. ytd. for 2 hours odd, i only did like what, 3 math questions? lol. i can kiss my movies au revoir. lol, fel, char, xiu and i were teasing mariah carey's touch my body and the stupid nerd. and fel wouldnt stop listening to fatty hilary duff's our lips are sealed. haha, had a great time though(:

today, my feelings were different. i woke up with a realisation that i'm heading to my parent's church, a very reluctant thing to do. the sermon was so long, i lost track of time and fell asleep, afternoon was spent at LOY KEE's chicken rice. i hadnt had a good meal for a long time but at the same time, i suddenly felt fat, again. pictures of models on the fashion runway flashed my mind again. why cant i ever have a body like theirs? i suddenly felt like a glutton.
lunch, was all i had today. my last consumption was a bunch of grapes.

so close.

2008-04-17T20:40:00.004+08:00

today is special day.

i'm one of a few,..many students invited by 20th Century Fox to join in their young filmmaking team!! Baz Luhrmann, producer(i think) for the upcoming film Australia starring Hugh jackman and Nicole kidman is looking out for students with such interest. i'm INVITED yay. so happy cox according to him ''during this process, the work you create will find an audience of millions by being included in the DVD release of australia

imagine, i could see HUGH JACKMAN!!!ahh. dorcas said forget about it as she further explained: you're interested in hugh jackman, not the course.
i'm skipping it. i'm so close, yet so far from him.BUT FILMMAKING IS NOT WHAT I LIKE..hugh jackman!!!!noooooooooooo

beacuse you live(:

2008-04-14T18:52:00.004+08:00

oh how i like it, i tried but i cant fight it

untraceable was not as good as i thought it would be, the only itneresting part was how the killer invented unimaginable ways to torture the victim. he needs love, hoho. i had my passport photo taken with dorcas on sat, was crazy man, dunno how to do a crazy pose so i looked super uber weird.

plans for days ahead have been made. there's cca tmr, prob watching flood on wed, a date with mrs rajah on thurs and cross-country cum lunch at ikea tampines cum swimming at night with dorcas, the otehr boleyn girl with vangoh on sat( hope she remembers) and wow, church on sunday. ugh, church. i dread lighthouse, pretty hard to fit in and i dun have a common interest with some people. so makes things harder to communicate. whatever, i'm still finding ways to get back to my good ol'church.((;

and i'm still waiting for 15 May, you made your word the show would come

the power of optimism

2008-04-08T21:02:00.003+08:00

~~I'm~~ You're bringing sexyback...

this is the very first time i'm willing to push myself to the limits and be optimistic on running the 2.4. i survived and was in fact feeling good for 9 rounds, kept chanting the greatest opponent is myself and i guess that statement had me alive and well till the 10th, my body was in pain and i had to stop, breathless. and like falling down on a steep slope, my determination to press forward extinguished. honestly, while looking on the bright side, i never felt tired at all while running, not for the 9 rounds, at all. wow.

ms nair said art had paper 3. which means it's a written work. art/history or so it seems. written. not drawing! but she said in order to do such, language is very impt and you must be able to express yourself clearly describe and bring out feelings/emotions from the visual art given to you. it's like you're given this picture on the paper and you're asked to describe how this potrait brings out a certain feeling or what can u say about this painting, how does it bring out feelings and all. char and i went to ms chew for her opinion if taking such paper would be good for us. well, ms chew told me to go for it. lol- she pointed out thanks to all those movies ... SEE I SAID IT WAS AN INVESTMENT((:

I LOVE MOVIES. U BETTER LOVE EM TOO<3

love is haunting

2008-04-04T21:24:00.003+08:00

fashion.style.panache.

i'm currently in the extreme mood for indian cuisine. the flavor of indian rojak just stirs up my cravings for a second round. but no, of course. a girl is what she eats. today while waiting for the indian rojak to be done, something caught my attention, one which will only exist when my dad sinks into the indulgence of indian cuisine too- roti john. i almost forgot! love it, and i only eat that whenever my dad's around..he's the only one who remembers the existence of roti john. lol

the rashes on my skin are like landmines. mini poppers.yuck. everytime i stroke my arm across, i feel these little bumps that are just so ..gross.like mini humps after humps in a group. and the highlight: it itches every half hour!

CHECK THIS OUT:
Sarah, your Sex and the City match is Samantha

Rrowr! What would life be without you? Brazen, intelligent, and not afraid to say whatever (and we mean whatever) is on your mind, when it comes to being fearless — you're the real thing. While some things that come out of your mouth may make your friends a little uncomfortable, it's fun to stir the pot sometimes and get a reaction. And that's half the reason you do it!

At first glance you come across as quite the wild child, but you're not just a sexpot. Your closest friends get to find out that you've got a big heart underneath those hot, hot clothes and a great head on your shoulders. With that killer combo, there's no way you won't get everything you want. What a firecracker!

if u want it come and get it

2008-04-02T21:05:00.002+08:00

Night runner, you got a spell that put me under

i just hate viruses. it's attacking the com! how do you get rid of it?COMPLETELY. gosh. this damned XP Antivirus keeps telling me There Are 63 viruses attacking you com! but wouldnt let me do anything about it.WHAT IRONY. someone tell me what to do? other than reformatting, cause i dun have the disc!):

wondered who said it's already april, in a blink of an eye it will be Os. and it got me thinking if i've started focusing. putting in effort to salvage my unforseen future. i was to focus focus focus but all that's coming out from my mind, soul and energy are excuses of being tired, there's still time, and the fact i will make it somewhere at least. excuses, i'm withdrawing from my determination again. when was the last time i worked hard anyway? Pri 3. i swear, i din even work hard for PSLE.

sigh. i wished it would rain everyday, haha. when it rains, winds will blow like ..wind. ok, the wind is srsly strong. and the rain is like..''whoa shiok arh''but the thunder and the lightning are the best. :D

shit, i'm not concentrating. denise is on the phone now, better go...talk to her..she needs someone to talk to, right denise?(:

cant help but wait

2008-03-29T00:19:00.005+08:00

SSPPOORRTTSS DAY today. will be my last and final one in PL, just realised. and i din çherish it. wats there to cherish anyway? it's not like i was a star or worth remembering, lol.

i really cant help but wait, even if it take forever and a night

i just kept thinking of hugh jackman. i dunno why. it's not a habit, not a routine whatsoever. damn funny: i dreamt that i got married. my mom was happy but she doesnt know who i got married to, she was just happy. i got married to hugh. LOL. funny shit. my mom was happily plucking the vege while cooking noodles and i was bathing when hugh stood outside with an emo hairstyle. ?!?
OHOHOH, i found out something HUGE!!(dont narrow thoughts)..but can only do so after O levels. shit! can't help but wait. watched inside the actor's studio, HE DOES HIGH JUMP! not fair, i do high jump since young and i have not pass 1.70m and hugh, ... 1.89m!! life life life, why are you so torturous to me! i really really really wish i could meet him.):

man, i think that when people take picture..all of them look good. like today, i was asked to take a pic, although i enjoy taking/posing whatsoever, i kinda felt reluctant because i was not the good-looking sort and my other friends are all either photogenic or good-looking, like, who am i to fit in there sorta thing. dad told me if i like taking pictures he could get me into photography sessions, like becoming a photojournalist. my heart din sank, i think it was asking 'so what now, i'm fated to be a bloody photojournalist? are u guys trying to stop my efforts in becoming something you wouldnt think it's possible?

i'm feeling miserable, tired and hopeless. as much as i try to stay alive in life, i dont think i cant last any longer. and, i wish i could restart life again. excel in sports, taking part in every sports day, be part of the sports committee or sth like that. at least if i dont go far in life, i still have sports to turn to.

if that's REALLY ok with you(((:, we could bang..hee

2008-03-26T21:32:00.004+08:00

you make me so high i can fly!!!!

sigh. watching someone like you was good, but not as good as expected. hmm, oh well, the presence of HUGH JACKMAN will suffice!!zomggg, he's so fucking handsome! wait..FEL said eh he quite handsome leh ((:(grins) and VANTAY said he has very nice eyes.. ahhh! simply drop dead!

woke up at 3am this morning and i was like no, gotta get to sleep. ok think hugh jackman, my eyes will definitely shut 20min later, my eyes were enlarged. shit. still, i managed to sleep again till 530. life goes on. ):

i've watched a total of 14 movies as of 1 Jan this year, wow. there goes about $140. i'm amazed, but seriously i should try cutting down some eh. but this year is a good year, i cant just CUT DOWN. maybe soon, after i watch..hmm, there're too many shows to watch. i dunno which or where to stop. oh i'm watching cassandra's dream next week so cant wait.:D

cause i love you, until the end of time

2008-03-24T20:09:00.003+08:00

- new myspace pic comment it LUUKEEE iWannaMakeLoveInThisClub says:
yeah
- new myspace pic comment it LUUKEEE iWannaMakeLoveInThisClub says:
the 2 went home and me and one had sex
- new myspace pic comment it LUUKEEE iWannaMakeLoveInThisClub says:
want m to send u a pic of me dik
the f word says:
no thanks. not my interest. lol
- new myspace pic comment it LUUKEEE iWannaMakeLoveInThisClub says:
its big
the f word says:
thanks but no thanks
- new myspace pic comment it LUUKEEE iWannaMakeLoveInThisClub says:
ok ur loss

lol, glad it was my loss. how the shit can a 15 year old be so desperate? 34some. that's totally unbelieveable.

taking all the chance, doin wat need to feel alive
din turn up for school today, so many people must have missed me. lol. this is my first allergy attack, after perpetual accounts of consuming shellfish. i thought i was going to die.): perhaps i should be a bit more optimistic, i thought i was really going to die until mel told me she had it before. phew!

i'm so bored, wih i can see hugh jackman now(((:

you make me so hot you make me wanna drop

2008-03-20T20:16:00.003+08:00

baby loving you comes easily to me, it's something that is all so natural to me

char: i had a dream..
me: about aaron.. yeah, no thanks. i laid my head down
char: nono!! i dreamt about, hugh jackman.
me, like a reflex action, i opened with eyes with my heart pounded with anxiety and unbelief, my body was recharged and i sat even closer to her
char: ohmygosh..and she laughed
me: tell me!! zomg!!!tell me!
char: i took out the IMPT points hugh jackman was talking to me'' pls tell your friend she should stop spitting vulgarities. it's so...unfeminine''.. he said he wanted to look for you but you were too shy.. he left, had a date with his wife...
me: i shall stop using vulgarities!!!!

today, i was caught smiling in bio
ms koh: sarah pls stop smiling to felicia, leave her alone.(laughs)
i was shocked she saw.
ms koh: today so weird weird one...lol
LOL.

mrs lum: ...so you watch a lot of movies..who's your fav actor?
me: huh? errr..(hesitating, hugh jackman you're 40 this year and i'm telling a teacher i'm a fan of a 40 yr old actor, pity you're no virgin..LOL) HUGH JACKMAN.
mrs lum( with a pause): huh?
me: oh..he acted in x-men..erm.. the wolverine guy
mrs lum: aiyoh... (does that mean she knows?)

sweeeeeeeeeeet kiwi

2008-03-18T20:54:00.003+08:00

infatuation, amzaing feelings that i have for you

so i did 1000 skippings, finally, for training. hopefully i grow taller((:
sigh, everyone in school is flying to the ausieland/NZ for wat? humanites trip, sports trip blah blah blah. but i'm HERE! burning my arse in s'pore): doing wat? DAYDREAMING!!! sigh oh hugh jackman, will you ever come to s'pore?!! at least an interview, i'll be happy if you ever land in s'pore, even if i dun get to see you..

holocaust presentation tmr. afraid to my wits end, not. haha. ay, i dunno. but i like such presentation! it's fun, just like my group, yeah though i wished we could have acted but we're still rather focused and yeah, just NICE people to work with(:

bloody point taken, thanks.

2008-03-16T16:59:00.003+08:00

i'll sink into my dreams and not get up again just to take a look at you

normally when i'm not cut for certain things, i understand. thats cox i was never meant for that, and really, i dun give a shit. today, it was different. it was boiling, i never felt like that before or i would say i've never taken this seriously before. how queer. because i felt like saying: if i ever make it above you guys, i'll see who's got the last laugh i took it very personal i guess. but you know wat, thanks a lot for waking me up, if u hadnt pissed me off i would still be in a fucking dream and make a fool of myself. i'd be a bloody mockery by then. thank you so fucking much.

love is a drug and i feel like getting high

2008-03-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

hahaha. i have once again dreamt of hugh jackman. damn weird, was at sentosa with my class clique and suddenly they went into hiding, leaving me and hugh jackman alone. VERY WEIRD, but we had so much fun in the water. so bloody strange. anyhow, i so loved that dream. watch this video, it's damn funny. the interview is not stiff and boring but he and that DARN jap girl just had such a good time!

(: i just cannot stop smilingggggggg. heee, completely forgoten about my homework. it doesnt matter, i still have a few days left. oh just so you know, i was so bored i wanted to find out who appeared in my dreams the most..so
1.evan eng- whoa, dun..just shut up. 12 times! freaky man.
2.MELISSA- 11 times. yup mel, apparently you appear in my dreams like almost every month!
3.HUGH JACKMAN((:- 10 times.rock on man. i srsly hope FiRST mag gets him to come to singapore. he went to KOREA AND JAPAN....)): grr.

OK. i changed my ambition, i want to be..what do you call those that interview celebrities in a private session?? yeah, i wanna be that. I WANNA BE THAT!!!!!!

wont go home without you

2008-03-10T23:15:00.002+08:00

i'll navigate the seven seas
just to find you

Meet The Spartans was not as bad as i thought. ha, britney spears was so shitty, she was like shaving her head, breastfeeding her baby and went uh yea yea yea yea yea and paris hilton, gosh her lump at the back. OH and paula abdul..rofl!

so we had this holocaust project today. not that i dun like the topic, i really dread projects.. but i like company.(: from not doing much in amk, we ended up in char's doing work and watching cable. my mind was very occupied today, only wishing that there was a better life than this somehow, somewhere. this is so bloody random.

i've been going crazy over MAROON 5 lately, ayyyyy, ADAM LEVINE!! gosh, his voice is just so perfect. imagine one morning you wake up on the bed and he comes up and whisper in ur ear, good morning. ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, HOT, just like a toaster.:D

charlie wilson's politics

2008-03-06T19:14:00.002+08:00

i'm anticipating 1 May 2009, each day fading is a day closer to you

shit shit shit!! the com hangs everytime i find pics. adam!!! levine!!! no!!!

OHOHOHOH, i got my hands on the FiRST mag today and i saw HUGH JACKMAN!!!WOLVEINE! 2009! TE FIRST MOVIE PIC! couldnt sleep last night, instead of dreaming of hugh jackman, i dreamt of evan eng.:/ he was like holding a 4 year old girl's hand at the train station, i thought that was his daughter den when i asked him, he said it was hisnighbour's daughter and he's bringing her to some childcare. lol. what kinda dream is this??

i knew it. math is the only lesson that made me fall asleep. not that mrs wong is a bad teacher or lesson is boring whatsoever, it's just that it's the last lesson of the day and time is cruel to us. from the back, i could actually see charlene covering her face and not moving( obviously sleeping!) see! last lesson's always the draggiest.

caught charlie wilson's war today. there were only 6 people in the cinema.lol. the show was very political and breasts were showing at the beginning part. man, you should have seen how the egyptian belly dancer chamed her way to the defence minsiter! like a snake!!!hiss~ vangoh drilled chinese words into my head afte that. ugh, it was very difficult. she said asking me to learn chinese is like bringing me to a slaughterhouse. lol.

ugh so sleepy now. haven even done my geog. crapster.

hanging out, down the street
the same old thing, we did last week
not a thing to do, but talk to you!
we're all alright, we're all alright!

smile.

2008-03-04T20:09:00.002+08:00

bet i scared the hell out of miss chew today.
missCHEWWWW. she turned and froze for awhile, her eyes enlarged and shocked. haha. and all of that just to pass her her answers for the compre. yeah, guess my voice went a little too low, gosh, maybe i could consider joining opera.

could have sworn i sounded like a man. the class could vouch for that.lol

went to watch a netball match today. it was a dunman match, back in school i was thinking we'd lose today, in the bus i had a picture of a sail on the calm waters( a breeze; we'd win). well, we lost. 19 points behind. it was scary. i was alone there den mrs teo and her son Ian came..somehow miss chew and Ian had a little chat that was so amusing...the fact that mrs teo's husband is from dunman would help you understand better.

miss chew: ...today is mommy(mrs teo on our side) and daddy's(mr teo on dunman's) match, who will you support?
Ian: both
miss chew: are you sure you can?
Ian: i know it's difficult but i will try.

awww..so cute! he's like so young and he could come up with that. bravo man.

watching charlie wilson's war tmr. cant wait.OH, DID I MENTION: ADAM LAVINE BURNS LIKE FIRE!<3

wake up with blood shot eyes
struggled to memorise the way it felt betwen your tighs

Have Faith

2008-03-02T22:17:00.002+08:00

for the first time, i just heard ''Have Faith In Me'' answering my doubts. for the first time i heard God's voice. it made my heart fragile for once.
service today was great, glad i din missed it. God told me he is a faithful Father and to have faith in him. He told me to turn to him when i feel sad, that's when i broke down in tears, cox i hadnt cried my heart out for a really long time.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALYSSA.
i'm glad we caught my 'present'. haha. we Juno-ed today at PS, after coming the town's cinemas, we caught it with the rest of the full house audience. the show was good, it was v good. but my, it's my first time seeing a pregnant lady with no reaction at all. got tiramisu cake for alyssa, HOPED SHE LIKED IT, SHE BETTER DID OTHRWISE I'LL SMACK HER BUTT.just kidding

mel should have been with us today, all of us were roaring with laughter with my free entertainment. i couldnt help it, i just kept on going and going and they kept laughing and laughing. i'm such a good entertainer..

no more worries miss villian

2008-02-29T20:38:00.002+08:00

shit. i know this pic is not really good, thats because he hardly acts in like really nice movies and he doesnt have a photoshoot session. )): BUT I LIKE HIS DRESSING. oh timothy!!!!!

another friday again, and today marks the end of feb. shit, have not starting on any revision and i cant find my keys to start the engine. whatever.

you know, i think i'm really hateful.
my cousin cant stand my...teasing at him. 'i'm still your cousin, whether i like it or not' hmm, yeah. i'm bloody hateful. and i tease poor char everyday(I'M SORRY CHAR) i can feel her agony, i'm her friend and yet i'm saying hurtful things to her.. i guess that makes me a villian, which i wouldnt mind being one anyway.

i kinda learnt something these few days. that i dont have to worry about marriage anymore. YAY. that's because i'm a tomboy and c'mon, which stupid guy whould fall for a tomboy? so, YES! i'm a repel magnet! i'm rough and violent, i tease people without saying sorry and kind of enjoy it(whoops). i'm not gentle or sexy or any of the desired features men want to se in a woman. so, AMEN!

these words are, from my heart: iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou

2008-02-27T20:08:00.003+08:00

I'M SOOOOOO IN LOVE WITH WOLVERINE!!
cant wait for next year, JUST CANT BLOODY WAIT!!!:D

daniel henney. ryan reynolds. and def not forgetting HUGH JACKMAN! AHH!!!i can feel my heart screaming to the entire body: i'm exploding all adrenaline!
BURN BABY BURN bettr sleep early tonight and when i have enough rest, my sub concious state of mind will activate again.(:

my phone is like communicating with a russian. i totally dunno how to bloody work it! Oh melissa my fair lady friend, COME TO MY FREEEKING RESCUE! lol.

school was utter trash today. i suck at comprehending body language, unless you're doing something like strip dancing or sth like that, i might be able to know what you want. ok, this wouldnt be even close to body language, everyday when i come into this awful class, one statement: what the hell is going on?
how should i even describe? it's like baking a cake blindfolded and you're suppose to eat and swallow it. eww, what if i accidentally added like half a vinegar in it.

if i could draw really well and drew a picture of my class, you all will really laugh not in fun and humour but in extreme mockery. mocking at the resemblance of the characters. haha. oh well.

it slowly creeps into your mind at first
giving you pleasure and satisfaction
then it takes control over your body
it starts to depend on it
now, you cant live without it

man devourer

2008-02-25T21:15:00.002+08:00

fucking lil dickheads

it's monday. bloody monday.
hadnt had enough rest( hmm, never had a good one anyway) and my triple eyelids always show.

ms chew: hey sarah, how come you always look so sleepy and tired? dont have enough rest is it?
me: haha..yeah.
ms chew: but if i ask you to watch a movie now, you'd definitely open your eyes right?
me(my eyes enlarged immediately): YES.
ms chew: just as i thought.

i dunno wats wrong with me these few days. i feel like unleashing hell one moment and i feel like laughing my lungs out the next. and i think it's pretty hard to survive without using vulgarities, not that i enjoy using them, i just feel better, expressing my bloody anger out. well, given the fact we cant have a fistfight in class, what else could we do?

maggie Q is acting in The Tourist too. NOT FAIR. ok she deserves it..BUT NOT SCARLETT JOHANSON!! hate her hate her hate her. grrr. shit. i forgot abt art. thank God i'm doing on movies, otherwise i literally bang my head on the wall. sometimes pain can be good, takes away memories.

i'm close to supressing all my compassion
soon, i wouldnt have to bother about having a bloody heart
tsk, do i even have one to begin with.

like a broken recorder, i'll keep chanting i love you

2008-02-22T19:37:00.004+08:00

it's even day! and it's friday! YAY!

caught Jumper yesterday. it wasnt as good as expected, but Hayden Christensen ROCKED the entire show.(((: nah, it still wasnt as good as expected, especially the ending..sigh. it was so cliche.

and wow guess what, i'm back on track in art. ms nair( and vangoh in the background) gave me an inspiration on linking movies and art. somehow..a way or another, i've never felt such kind of drive before. probably that's because there was the mention of movies. YUMMY.

water polo man din turn up today. vantay says i have a 'competitor', who calls him chocolate man. (why chocolate? does he like eating that?) i need to make this clear: i don't crush him. i just like his build, pity his height is..need i say more?

oh, there's something going on in the class, cant exactly tell but i know there's something going on. i dont think its good..anything that happens in this class is NEVER good. oh bother. ok, heading sun-tanning tmr, so cant wait.

A FEW HOURS MORE TO HELL'S KITCHEN!( gordon ramsay fiery temper is an attraction; i dont mean that i'm attracted[pur-lease]. i'm saying it's the main part of the show..something like that)

i never thought i could be so satisfied
everytime when i look in your angel eyes

Gerry oh Gerry what am i going to do?

2008-02-19T19:42:00.002+08:00

caught PS I Love You with janice chan and sharmila today. i know it's an odd day but MELISSA IS ASKING AND I CANT WAIT FOR ANOTHER DAY TO SHARE!!:D it was so sweet! kept crying because it was very touching and heart warming.and v funny too:)
MELISSA PLEASE GO WATCH IT. YOU'D REALLY LIKE IT i love Gerard Butler! he's so sweet and so romantic!!!omg, where the hell would you find such a guy like that!

->there's something wrong with my tagboard. i cant exactly type in it. SORRY VANGOH. I SAW YOUR NAME THERE BUT DIN MANAGE TO SEE THE MESSAGE. only saw mel's. erm.. yes i shall publicly(is there even such a word?) announce it:MY PHONE PASSED AWAY A COUPLE OF WEEKS AGO. CURRENTLY CONTACTLESS. haha. shant blog further...the previous post of the italian model is so hot!!!

common test finale

2008-02-18T19:02:00.004+08:00

HOTHOTHOT.:D
italian model. but pity he's kinda old):..ok, he's younger than hugh jackman by a couple of years...hmmm

today was the last day of common test. chem was unexpectedly hard, wayyyy harder than i thought. i kinda felt v sleepy today..dunno why. had new york new york last night, i was conned by it's beautiful interior and the food was ugh. fish n chips was the lowpoint. i had fish tange.. something, but that was fine. oh gosh, the root beer was massive. i felt like an oversized bird.

in school today cilque, fel and i gathered together and had good laugh. we kept teasing ~~mary~~ quan hui. hadnt had a good laugh in a very long time. miss those days... heard quan hui saying mrs tng asking if we were going to play volleyball again..hmm.. i miss volleyball really badly. probably might play some time soon. yingxiu says that a lot of things that come out from my mouth are just men and movies and i so agree. haha. i cant help it..those topics keep my eyes wide open. admit it, we all talk about men. char talks about aaron( oh wait, he's a boy: SORRY CHAR LOL.) van talks about her HONG KONG STARS. fel talks about some taiwanese people..eileen and i talk about HUGH JACKMAN AND NO ONE ELSE haha..see. i'm not the only one!

gosh, am so touched. JASMINE AND NICOLE gave me a belated v day letter. nicole's art was marvelous, the rose she drew was beautiful:D and jasmine..haha, she wrote: WOLVERINE LOVES YOU.:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDi just shot up sky high! THANK YOU FOR THE LETTERS LOVELIES.

what on earth am i am to do?
when this crowded place there is
only you?

ihearthughjackman

2008-02-15T21:07:00.005+08:00

Meet Jean Grey in real person. SHE'S SO HOT. OH YEAH, she's a dutch model, how can i forget?
it's no wonder wolverine is ''sexually attracted to her''. cyke is so lucky.

cant help it, i'm suppose to blog on even days(i'm not trying to be Christopher Boone, i just love even numbers) but i saw her pics so i decided to put it up.SHIT, THEN I HAVE TO SCROLL DOWN MORE TO SEE HUGH JACKMAN):

went to eileen's with yingxiu. met weijie and derek and we mahjong-ed till 640. i'm so happy cox i won the last game! haha. i'm still hooked on hugh jackman's website and the video making the grade SO JEALOUS! how can that ''chelsea'' girl be the damned lucky piece of shit WHO KISSED HUGH JACKMAN ON THE LIPS!!!!!!!PISSED! and she's just a teenager, LIKE US. grrrr....i'm sad. cause i can only dream of him every day and night and i know i will never see him in my entire life. never.

but if i ever( that is never) see him one day on the streets, i'll be like 'oh. my. GOSH. arent you WOLVERINE?' then i'll smile so badly my jaws are numb. and i'll ask for his autograph and a PICTURE. THEN, I'LL ASK if i could kiss him on the cheek.JUST KIDDING. as if i dare. my heart is beating like some heart attack alr..imagine if i really see him, my heart will be missing.

i can only dream dream dream..
wired in my head: shayne ward- breathless